h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

and I feel like shit

and now I am angry and shamelessly posting in the hope that I garner some and sympathy and and gentle kicks up the ass

I have thought about mowing the lawn, then after that with the autumn sun glaring through my kitchen window I could clean that and admire my 'see through window' and better looking garden

but, forcing myself to do that, something that I would otherwise well, not enjoy, as in get out the flags and party enjoy, but find nevertheless rewarding, I'm spissed off and very tired of having to do that

that I see the beauty of the sunshine, the little things in my garden but have no feeling of them makes me

and now a ruddy great rain cloud has tipped up and I am even more cross

OK Peanut here's some and a but I can't find the sympathy or gentle kick up the ass smileys! I guess it's a bit late now for mowing the lawn. Well don't worry about stuff too much! There will be more sunshine. Over here we've had a big hailstorm a couple of nights ago and my plants got battered pretty well! So I'm now having to wait for them to start looking better as well.

I mowed it in girt huff and I know there will sunshine again, that I will enjoy it like I should and I will see it through my 'see through' window

thank you for your lovely , the , we can both dispense with the sympathy, but just for a while I will also do without the kick up the ass smiley, because I am enjoying the

although anytime in the future in absence of certain smiley that is not sympathy,go for

*gives Peanut kick up the ass*...

Your plants got battered by a hail storm, ouch, that hurts, I hope they feel better soon too

is there anymore ?

As someone who can spend hours looking at things that need doing, and telling myself that I'll feel a lot better about everything when they are done, and they won't take long, and I don't have anything better to do; and then not doing them and feeling lousy about it all just as I knew I would, I can sympathise entirely.

Thank you HD

I'm sorry that you understand so well.

Today seems to be a sad day, I feel tearful and that is worse than angry I think, so obviously I will give myself a whipping for being a self pitying wimp

No, I *am* going to be kind to myself and while having a stinking cold and it is Sunday, the ideal excuse for a duvet day I am going to potter slowly, then reward myself with some duvet time

Very pretty morning and my see through window did make me smile

Today the rain was falling gently, outside the grass looked lush and mown and the cherry tree looked Autumnal and my white roses looked bright

where the rain was trickling down the window, like a very soft waterfall it make the view crinkled, but viewable,

if I rocked very slowly side to side, it did not blur,it was like seeing the garden through vertical waves

it made me smile

I really like my see through window

No sun today.

I am shortly off for lunch, nice I hear you say, well it is and it isn't. On the one hand potentially excruitating social situation on the other hand Peanut find your and lunch and no washing up

I got a compliment from Hiccup on my outfit, smart apparently and co-ordinated and suitably Peanutish, that is a feat, as I'm not known for my co-ordination, clothes or dance,sometimes I misjudge doorframes and whack a shoulder or arm and that is without slow gin. The compliment came without asking and we have brutal honest policy on clothes, it is a good start.

Lunch is going to be delicious, stuffed vine leaves and chicken dish in creamy white wine and garlic sauce with chips and salad bowl, plus large glass of wine

I want to enjoy myself and hope socially competent and to be good company

Well lunch was delicious and after the first 10 minutes I relaxed and enjoyed myself. I seemed to be good company as far as I can tell.

While I wasn't drunk I felt sheepish going to the school mid afternoon after drinking wine to vote.

After deciding that it would be a good idea to have a coffee rather than pour another glass of wine when I got home my kettle decided to try to kill me, fortunately I noticed the odd smell again and let go before big flash

What scared me was that I had noticed a faint smell that I couldn't put my finger on when I got home and the big flash occured when the kettle was plugged in but not switched on to boil on the kettle, *shudders* I don't turn the plug off at night so that could have been nasty.

Hiccup was home alone today and likely up in her room, we have smoke alarms that work and fire plan and all, I know she knows the drill but still *shudders* again

Having had coffee and a bit of a fright think I might have glass of now

After a herculian effort I have done the washing up, cleaned down the sides,put on the washing and put out recycling and rubbish.
Stupid, ridiculous amount of effort