h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

arent you the weird one

no need to be like that

terribly sorry, terribly sorry. of course, you are *perfectly* normal. average, even

i'm not not normal

i love being not normal

so why did you get upset when i accused you of not being normal?

i didn't, i was.... stop confusing me!

i have that effect on women

i might very well say the same thing to you

brillaint

yeah. im really on top of my game. why are you feeling sad?

because i am feeling sad when i /should/ be feeling happy, which is wrong

well there has to be a reason for you being sad?

there is, but it's very hard to exaplain.

i'm not feeling so sad anymore though cos i'm pretending it's not there

theres a technical term for that: denial

no, it isn't

that is denial! better now?

yes thanks

are you gonna tell me what was wrong?

yes, yes i will

you are the only one i have told so feel privaleged! (or cursed)

here follows more information than you want to know:

in september 2000 a new boy turned up at school (we were in year 10). he was called David and he'd just moved south from Daventry. we got talking and became good friends. his best friend (Andy) lived in Daventry and David missed him loads. he would talk to him most nights on the phone. i was introduced to Andy via msn messanger we got talking and bcame good friends too. we had 3 way conversations and the like. i fell in love with David about February 2001. i now know that he'd been falling in love with me since about Christmas, but i hadn't known that then. he finally asked me out on Tuesday May 7th (5.30pm) by phone. i was sitting under the plum tree.... we had a great time for quite a few months. then around Autmn he started getting really paranoid everytime i talked to any male at all. i was still talking to Andy loads and David seemed to think we were going to run off together. at the begining of February (2002) i finally realised that i didnt love David anymore (kind of ironic eh?). but i couldn;t tell him. i knew it would kill him. so i kept it to myself for about half a month. it was terrible though. i had no appetite and i barely slept. when i did i had terrible nightmares. i finally realised i had to tell him when i came into school one day and a close friend of mine said "what's wrong?" i said "nothing, i'm fine" she said "no, you're not. you're not shining". so i told him. i had to tell him by phone, (another irony?) i had wanted to wait till i could tell him face to face, but i couldnt do that to him at school and i really couldnt wait till the weekend. he was devastated. he came into school the next day, took one look at me and burst into tears. anyway, i think i've lost the original thread here...... i was unhappy cos of all that, and another reason. in february Andy came down to stay for a week(he's done thata few times before). he met my friend Holly and he asked her out a week later! when i was unhappy a few weeks ago it was cos she'd gone up to see him (i couldnt go cos of work). even though i'm really close to both of them, i just can't be happy that they're going out. i dont know why, it's so wrong, i should be happy for them. at the moment David is deliberately telling me about all these girls he's been flirting with on the internet (to prove a point?) it just makes me feel miserable. he told someone on saturday that he still loves me. so why is he doing this? ARG! i need to hide under my bed...

*Lizzy wants to aplogise for wasting your time and rambling excessivly*