h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Willem, this is very important for me to get through to you. Even though you are back now, on medication, you still need to always remember that you are loved. We love you. And it's unconditional, and it's always here for you. Don't go run off or do *anything* stupid--I'm not even talking just all our wonderful English-language euphamisms for suicide. You are really smart and have an amazing future.

I first came to h2g2, and pretty soon I saw some old posts by you.... An explanation (sort of) of what was going on... and I sat through the experiences of 5 weeks ago, and I was ready to cry. My cousin killed himself, and one of my best friends has tried twice. Our world may be bad at times, but there are *always* people who care. Always people who care. People who miss you, people who love you.... We're here, Willem.

Then I continued, and I read your posts from following the doctor. It was beautiful, Willem, to see the hope there. To see the brightness and hope that I *really* wish you will carry with you forever. You are worth it. You deserve a WONDERFUL life.

Willem, we care so much about you... it's amazing. It's amazing how much I love someone I have never met and probably never will meet, but I still do. I was thinking about you constantly today. We love you Willem.

*Please* talk to someone if anything else comes up. No one wants to lose you, Willem, you bring us so much happiness and vibrance to our lives now. It is so important to me, just to have you here. Someone to talk to, someone who's been through it all but can still smile. Willem, we love you. Never forget it.

I am sending you love and happiness, Willem, forever.
~the Shee~

Thanks immensely for everything, Shee! (Any relation to the *ban*shee?) Thanks also for the work you're putting into the Reggabwow project! I think you're doing fantastic!

Sorry to hear of your cousin and your friend. I have also lost friends and acquaintances to suicide, but I don't blame them, because I have a good idea how they must have felt.

I don't think I'll easily try suicide again ... things will have to become really amazingly bad first, and I'm hoping they don't.

I would like to get to know you better, by the way!

Yeah, you are loved Pillowcase. It's great to have you back here, I hope you have overcome all the obstacles. Or else we are here to help you. Do jump into the discussions again, so we can have some more pillowtalk

Well, my friend is still alive... I see her everyday and I hope to God she never tries again. She doesn't seem to want help; at least, not drugs or doctors or that kind of thing that help. She's been stopped each time so far. I can't *blame* anybody, but I can still regret it... Regret it a lot.

Banshee? I like that.. neat. Actually, it has to do with a computer game from cyberlife... The shee left the planet, and set up the entire game. There isn't much more to that name than just that I liked it though!


the Shee

Hey Xanatic, I don't know when I'll be back in the discussions. I can't take very much 'real life' at this time. I'll see, anyways, thanks!

Shee - suicide attempts are already a really really serious problem. That is to say, they are the manifestations of a really really serious underlying problem. The problem is not necessarily in the person, but the person feels the problem very intensely. I hope you give your friend a lot of support and listening-to.

I am not completely OK yet ... still taking many things very hard and often questioning whether there is any point in still going on with life ... things just seem amazingly bad and I just feel amazingly helpless to deal with them. Then if I stick it out, it feels better again. But it sure feels bad before it feels better again.

I think it will always feel bad before it gets better.... You're not alone in that! *small smile, and a sigh*

The way I deal with a loss of "point" (that is, like a purpose to my life).. I don't know. I was having problems with that last year. Just sort of a loss of caring and an utter apathy... I'm better now, about it, though. I always end up finding a small point, something to throw myself into and keep up forever (well, perhaps not *forever* ). Right now, it's the reggabwoW? project... Because I can put myself entirely into it and just try for a while to be other-centered... Stop thinking my own thoughts, you know? I think too much. Anyway, I'm really glad I have this outlet. It helps . Get rid of your self for a bit. (You could take that a number of ways.... Take it the one I mean, 'k? )

My friend... no one can really talk to her. She isn't at all an open person. She had a psychologist at the beginning of this year, but she just couldn't talk to him. I don't know.... Two of her really close friends she talks to, at least sometimes, and that eases the weight on my mind. She worries me.

We're always here for you Willem.... Lot's of people are. You have a gigantic support network that you can lay back on if you ever want or need it.

Peace,
the Shee

You know, I also appreciate this reggabwoW project ... it gives me something to do here on h2g2! When I finished answering all the messages on my Uspaces I can go and do that for a while ... it's quite a nice, 'different' thing to do!

I hope your friend is/becomes OK. It will be good if she can open up to some more friends.

What I would like is if I, with or without support, can just do something to improve conditions for a few other people in the world! Things are going well for me ... but I find it hard to handle that things are going so bad for so many other people in the world!

I love every single person on this earth... Surely that has to count for something? To have people care for you makes a tremendous difference, I think.... Everyone is loved, and that matters. Even when things are bad, they still have the love to get them through all the bad things.... I'm not quite sure why I am posting this; it in itself is not going to change anything. Oh yes it will, what am I saying: maybe some lurker will read it and tell all his family and friends he loves them. And then they will say it. And it will go everywhere, and life will improve for people all over the world through it. Hey, a girl can hope, can't she?

But life is going to get better for everybody just because we are trying. However long it takes, this project and our smiles will affect people across the world in a good way.

Keeping my chin up,
the Shee

Valerie, Vivienne, anyone else who cares to see--I seem to have forgotten about you! Ya'll are loved too! Didn't mean to exclude you, just forgot you existed *cringe*. ? I'm sorry...! *cringe again; Shee has seemed to have gotten herself into a bit of trouble...* Please forgive my oversight!

~Shee

Hey Shee! What trouble do you mean? As far as I know I never introduced you to Val and Viv and any of the others, so you are allowed to have forgotten about them, or indeed to not know that they exist!

Yes, but I lurk . Sorry about that. I know they exist and that's why I felt bad, even though I've never talked to them or anything (like I know hmm.. let's say Titania exists, although I've never talked to her), and I don't mean to exclude anyone....

I'm a lurker!

(I followed some of Lucinda's old threads around, and most of them are dead... It's still an excuse...)

So, do you wanna meet them?

Sure.

Well, my internet is working ulra-slow right now, and my right shoulder is getting sore again, so they will just quickly say hello, and then I'm going to take long bath! If the computer is still online when I come back, we can talk a bit more!

Here's Valerie:

Hello Shee! It is an honor to meet you! Here's Vivienne:

Hello, the Shee! I am honored, too! We'll talk at great length later, should you so wish! Back to Willem:

Right! There you have it! Now you still need to meet Malisse, Griffin and Patience, plus lots of other folks!

Hi guys! I'm sorry, I think I got offline before you replied--oops. We'll talk later?

Yes, let's!