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Just a few random thought

Posted Apr 20, 2005

went to a strip club last night, which I sometimes do for a good time out with the boys and was a very interesting evening.

Now the purpose of a strip club to me is to make a fantasy that a stunningly beautiful woman will find me attractive and want to spend a few minutes at least engaged in a sensuous moment. Well found a girl like that last night, I know its fake but for awhile its nice to have a thought that it might happen. Haven`t felt like that in a long time.

Lets just say she was very good at what she does and leave it at that. So just a few thoughts on whether or not this is a good thing or not. Now me being very shy all my life, something I am working very hard to get rid off. Not sure what it stems from could be bad relationship flaws either in me or my partner at the time, but who knows.

So for a few minutes last night I felt that only I existed with this girl (which is thier job I know, isn`t that what fantasy is about?) so on a good note this was achieved, a sense of self in that I felt attractive to at least someone, now the bad is always the after where you realise that its a faked emotion at least on her part anyway. Guess I equate it to drugs (which I don`t do, unless you count alcohol) its a faked feeling for a short period of time. But if that takes you away from your life for awhile which might not be the most exciting thing at the time, is that not a good thing? As long as your aren`t hurting anyone (cept maybe yourself, which you are responible for) I think its a good thing.

anyway random thought over back to work!

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