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You're still bitter and angry then 'Bear in mind'?

Fair enough. I am sorry again. Sorry, sorry, sorry.

I am changing and I thought you would be too but I guess not.

You have every right to still be angry.

When I think about you now I think that yes, you were stressed and had a go at me. I just didn't realise it and instead of thinking, oh this will change, I thought I can't deal with being treated like this anymore. And that was how I was then....so sue me for being ME also. I should have dealt with it differently but I didn't and I am sorry about that. I should have had the confidence to stand up for myself but I didn't. I took a stupid way out rather than having a shouting match and sorting out issues. I don't/didn't like confrontations. I have little experience of them and usually feel belittled by them.

I am changing by crying a great deal. Every day in fact. Not just about you but about how my life has changed so drastically in the last three years. I am only just coming to terms with it all. And of course it's all my own choice so I wouldn't expect pity or understanding from anyone. I am having to deal with living on my own now. I suppose I don't have to but it wouldn't be fair on anyone new so I'm not dating new people.

Just taking small steps every day and trying to be a good mum and friend.

Sorry to have drawn you into it all and added to your anger about women.

I would have emailed this but our email is down. This post was supposed to be short but seems to have got longer. No doubt I will think of other things to say also.

I hope you are well and enjoying life by the way.

Sincerely meant.

And another thing...

I had been thinking that perhaps I had made a mistake but then you go and remind me of how cruel you can be.

It's ok. That's just you being you and saying what you want. I guess we were never meant to be because I can't deal with being got at like that...........I am sensitive and get very upset. That is who I am.

You need someone who will take it all with a pinch of salt etc. and let you blow off steam.

I hope you have found her or will find her.

X

How about doing something positive with your life?

Using all those fabulous brain cells for something good? They shouldn't go to waste.

Not bitter, not angry. Bad day at work. Apologies. Cruel? *Me*? Brain cells not going to waste. Miss your children.

And another thing:

"I had been thinking that perhaps I had made a mistake"

You have.

Thanks for the appology.

May I ask if you are in your new house yet?

In.

That's good news.

Do you think we might be able to be friends one day?

I drove half way to your house this evening and then realised how rude it would be.

Not a good idea.

Made a mistake?

Yes, I think I have.