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Bleepety-bleep bad mood.
Amanda Started conversation Oct 8, 2000
I'm trying really hard to decide if it's worth being angry or not. I mean, one minute I'm okay then the next I'm a big blistering ball of hate and spit and all the cruddy, yucky things you could imagine rolled up into one, with room left over for a couple of stinky socks worth of blech. And then some.
Alternating with a general ambivalence towards all things in general... especially the one thing that I'd never have guessed I couldn't care about. Just long enough for me to snap out of it and be mad again.
But then there's the sad thing. Sadness towards all things I can't change... the intrinsic ignorance built into our society, which excuses away the inexcusable and chalks it up to "the way things are". Things that we should have outgrown decades ago. Things that just keep rearing their ugly heads and try to make me feel ugly, pathetic and used. They make me hate who I am and who I will never be. A piece of meat for your amusement.
If I didn't care then it wouldn't hurt. But if I didn't care, that would make me just as bad as they are. Without doing a single thing... just not caring. Which, I suppose, is just as bad a thing as the thing itself because NOT caring is the root of the issue. Not caring about what the thing represents and not caring about its ramifications. Not being able to look around and realize that things are f****d up for a REASON, or realizing and not caring. Either way, just keeping the cycle going... a view that isn't likely to be changed, really, no matter what I say or think or however much it hurts me. It just continues. And it's really bloody likely to be passed on and on and on. And that's what really scares me.
Things don't seem to change, no matter what you do. It's depressing.
I could go on and on about being sick of being disappointed and high standards and the like. Really, I just needed to spew a lot of cryptic crap onto this page if for nothing else than to make a new journal entry. Maybe to get back on the computer again. I'm so disgusted with the internet and people and things and stuff, though, that it's hard to do. When I don't like things and stuff I tend to shy away from them, thinking that if I don't CONTRIBUTE to the crap and other people follow suit it'll die out on it's own. But, apparently, using things never goes out of style.
It'd be different if the shoe were on the other foot. A lot of things would. That, of course, goes without saying. If only people GOT it and realized that wrong is wrong, no matter how pretty it is, and rationalizing it only makes it worse. Excuses are excuses. Too bad only 52% of us figured that out.
But enough about me... how are you?
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bubster Posted Oct 8, 2000
I was just going to say it makes me cross that the laces on my favo(u)rite shoes - well, the left shoe of my favo(u)rite pair - broke; but it all seems fairly inconsequential in the whole mess of cruddy, yucky, hateful things in the world, so I think I'll just thread them through the next set of holes and be done with it...
Uh, if that's OK with you, o'course...
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Amanda Posted Oct 8, 2000
Of course.
No matter that you walking around with one floppy shoe would make me giggle. Not that I'm giggling right now, or anything.
Nope.
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bubster Posted Oct 8, 2000
Ya know, one man's floppy is another man's c...
Wait - let me rephrase that.
What's floppy for one man is merely casual for anoth-
Dang! That's still not right...
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Amanda Posted Oct 8, 2000
Flopping casually is another man's favorite pa...?
Hmmm.
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bubster Posted Oct 8, 2000
*changes his mind and goes off to buy a new shoelace*
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Classic Krissy Posted Oct 9, 2000
*points out*
Well he DID try. And you gotta' admit there's nothin' wrong with a little bubster.
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beetle, return of Posted Oct 10, 2000
'manda, i just read the post, and i wanted to say that i'm sorry you had to stand in line at DMV.
*offers a cricket lollipop*
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Amanda Posted Oct 12, 2000
LOLOLOlololololol!!
It's funny 'cause it's true.
*munches on lollipop*
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