h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Too long have I no totally allowed myself to be myself, too long have I judged n berrated myself, too long have i let other peoples opinions n reactions make me, too long have i let bas*ards put me down n break what spirit ive managed to keep.. no more.

Last night i couldve happily slit my wrists because of something some i cared aboutm deeply, n had claimed to care about me said to me, through anger n spite most likely..but it was still very very cruel.. especially from someone who knew 'just' how their words would hurt me..when i had done no real wrong or meant any harm.

I can be mixed up, misguided n inexperieced, i also have to cope with the emotional inbalances n insecurities that years of emotional abuse n having bpd have left me with..but i am not a bad person.. not at all, and even when my good intentions go wrong, through misguidedness n nothing more, i dont deserve to be treated how i was last night..it was very cruel, and surely misguidedness alone doesnt deserve that.

I 'am' sorry for my part in things, but also angry i seem to be beoing blamed for things that cant be my fault..noithing likee that is eversolely one persons fault.. n my only crime was caring!

Anyway, im not going anywhere..

Please stop thinking badly of yourself - you are great, warm-hearted and just a great friend, I know that, I've stayed with you, after you invited me, a total stranger, to stay with you in your house, I still don't know how to thank you adequately for that , don't let others drag you down, please

Well you can be yourself later this afternoon I hope and you are going somewhere, Kings Cross You are a very warm hearted caring person you have to stop beating youself up mentally just because some other people are bas***ds

2legs, I'm glad you'll meet Serephina this afternoon, will you please give her an extra hug from me, I'm too far away to come over myself

I'll give her a from everyone* on H2G2 I'll see if my 'magical madness' can help cher her up for Seriph

Have a good time, guys - I think you're going to cheer each other up immensely

I'm cheered up already as I'm going to go and meet Seriph in London I'll do my best a few drinks and we'l have a good chat I think

, I didn't know you were down, too


Hope you'll both hav a great time, and that Sereph will be at King's X in time this time

I hope she is on time too; for the sake of my lungs; I do tend to chain smoke when I'm hanging about waiting for thins like trains etc I ought to go get ready oh, I'm such a 'tart', it takes me hours to do my hair *flutters eyelashs well, soon as I've done all this washing up from last night

And nice long hair you have
I wish you a real great time

I keep having these thoughts periodically that I should cut my hair short; it really is such a long winded process to wash it with shampoo, use conditioner, then serium, and then ages to dry it not to mention all the time I hav eto spend pulling it out of the plug hole and sweeping it up of the wooden floors upstairs and hoovering it up off teh carpets down here Don't think I could bring myself to do it really though, I don't know haivng my hair any other way I ought do this washing up now then turn my attentions to my hair

I'm still trying to get my pit clean before my mum gets here at 5pm so i can leave.. really had let it go a bit!

and theres nothing to thank B'elana..seriously! and you know you'll be welcome again any time..

Theres not much i can do with my hair at the mo! its sort of inbetween lenghths n stuff..i should prolly give it a wash though...never know when i might run into johnny depp

Don't say that too loud,Sereph, I could actually consider it

Uups, I meant consider to stay with you, not running into Jonny Depp, he's not my type, and anyway, I'm too old

Johhny Depp?

Seriously Serephina, forget him!

forget johnny? never!

But he's married

and?