h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

..too good about myself at the mo. I've been a bit up n down lately, and as is usual with bpd i dont realise until its too late and those close tome have already taken the brunt of my risen insecuritites n fears. This time i fear i may have hurt,even lost someone who means everything to me... n right now i feel pretty guilty.Most of the time now i can reasonably control the things i struggle..i've not been bad with it in years, and this person has done wonders for me just by being there let alone everything else recently. so what do i do? have a lapse n ruin everything!..ive possibly spoiled n lost the best thing that ever happened to me! andhurt someone i love more than anything who i'd never hurt willingly...i couldnt be more sorry,more guilty, but is that enough?

Perhaps, dear girl, give yourself a bit of time and re-think. In a couple of hours, what you think you may have said may not be as bad as you thought. And if you are still too worried, this "who-ever" should know you well enough to give you a chance to come back, with heart in hand and true explanations.

I don't know you anywhere near as well as many of your friends here, but the one thing I do know is that you have a heart beyond measure and not a mean bone in your person.

So a bit of time, re-thinking, and a call perhaps......

And as always, a , good lady.

I've had a while to think about it already (since thursday),thats why i feel so bad..

Poor darling

Take some deep breathes... have a cup of tea.... and stop thinking so much!

Just a little time and space can work wonders. Your friend will be back.

Hope it turns out not to be as bad as you think it is, things rarely are, though I am a hopeless optimist at the moment <cuddl

t isn't though i think i still may hve some making up to ddo..

why all the optimism at the mo then 2legs? somehing youre not telling us?

Nothing in particular I don't think, just realising that everything isn't awful in my life, and its actually ratehr good the course I'm on is very good too, especially the socal side of it all and I'm doing some work for a local charity that is being recieved rather well, also a couple of job rleated thing I can do now, one to apply for, one that might* come up, and another one which is a possibility of some temporty part time work doing proof reading on braille matterial oh, and I think* I've lost a little weight (despite partaking in far too much of the wonderful food on offer during the course in Bristol)

im starting to worry i may have gained a little!

Of course.... I don't* actually have a pair of scales, so I might not have lost any, or even gained... Which wouldn't supprize me after the food on the course i was on plus all the red wine and beer... Just did a grocery shop on the tesco website, dilivered tomorrow around lunchtime A far* more health conscious shop that I was doing a few months back; I even* bought some 'Cottage cheese' and I've not eaten that in years... 'healthy eating ' cheese, and 'healthy eating' chicken breast fillets, and 'healthy eating' turkey for stir fry, been sprouts, water chestnuts three types of mushrooms, celery, lemons onions Baking potatos salad stuff and a tin of tomatos NO PASTA! think I'll have to give up pasta if I've any chance of loosing weight, its got just too many calories, and is something I can eat and eat and eat Oh, I got some toasting crumpets, which I've not had in ages, they'l do for breckfast/lunch,

I had lasagne (microwave) for tea tonight..i really should look at my eating habits too!

This evening I had a bit of a randomly chosen meal, using up what little food I've got left in Onion and garlic fried in a little olive oil and a healthy eating chicken breast fried in it too, after being sliced up, lots of ground cumin and oragino and then I put in some rinsed basmati rice, water and lemon juice, and I added some peas and sweetcorn about five minutes before it were cooked I've still a fair bit of it left on the plate, might eat later, its about 600 calories a dish, which is pretty good as its a filing meal I'd normally put mushrooms and celery in too but I didn't have any Goes nice with some leafy salad too which I also don't have think I'll have some now,

I;m on the schnapps

I should try to drink less really, I get through an awful* lot of calories from beer and red wine Only having a glass or two tonight whats left from the three bottles we drunk last night when we got back from the pub think I was rather drunk last night I can't remember going to bed!

maybe thew badgers tucked you in

i dont drink often at all anymore really..

Reallyu? I just went and listened on the 'listen again' dobry on the BBC radio thing, to the new hitchhikers programme that was on Tuesday when I couldn't listen to it as I was in Bristol, Quite good adaptation of it Just about finished of fthe left over wine now might go eat the left over bits of my rice dinner thing