h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

It's this simple, Willem. If you,who are good, do this, evil wins. Do you REALLY want evil to win?

you can't, willem. don't let evil do this to you.

you have so much you still have to do for the world. books to write, beauty to observe, eyes to open!

willem. ponder this for a second:

you're sXe. i'm sXe. we both believe that we should respect our bodies and never, ever do anything to harm them.

my body is a temple. i remember you believing yours to be as well.

don't do this. don't ruin your temple to yourself.

You want to have children, and watch them grow up happy and healthy. That's GOOD. It's normal. It's sane.

Everyone, in every generation, as far back as the oldest people I've ever spoken with has wondered whether there was any good reason to bring children into the world.

Well, take for a start the fact that the human species isn't TOTALLY evil... People in Belfast have children. People in Cambodia have children. People in Afghanistan have children. People in South Africa, of all places, PERSIST in believing that life is an end in itself.

I can't have children. This was not by choice. You can, and you would be such a loving and magical father. So what's stopping you?

please, willem, say something. anything.

Willem,

Can you answer?

Have you said good bye to the good things? All the good things?

Have you said good riddance to the bad things?

Is there no one whom you need to hug one last time?

Is there no one you really want to insult well and truely?

Barton

Everyone,

Willen has posted briefly at that other place that the moderators won't let us name. He has not been totally silent though the periods between his repsonses are frighteningly long.

Barton

This is what he wrote there:

I never said, or believed, that suicide is a solution. It is most
definitely not a solution for anything. I don't even know about
solutions any more. I can't see any solutions. I don't see this as a
solution either. It's just an experiment. I've tried everything else,
now I wanna try this.

You appeal to me with love ... I've heard it all before, so many times.
The problem is, I stopped believing in all things that seem good. I
don't know what love is worth. To me it only seems to lead to hurt,
hurt, and more hurt. The same with caring. We hurt those we love. I am
hurting all of you now. If I kill myself, it will hurt all of you a lot,
yes ... don't I know that??? And if I don't kill myself, I'll still be
hurting you all a lot ... only, it will go on for longer. I posted
earlier messages of using violence to forestall further violence. Nobody
responded to them yet, in earnest. I am in danger of turning into a
*really* violent person, because I am losing my faith in humanity, in
goodness. I want to forestall that.

Willem,

If you fear that you are in danger of losing your faith in humanity and goodness, then you should understand that fearing the loss of something is not the same as having lost it.

Fearing the loss says that there is still something left to fight for. And I hope that is the case for you.

Barton

willem.

i love you.

i know your parents are with you now. i hope you all can figure this out together.

i am here for you. you've got my cell phone number. if you ever need to, call me.

sea,

Thank you.

Barton

thank you too.

i'm here for you too, if you ever need it. same goes for everyone who was up all night with me.

s to all...

willem, i'm praying my brains out for you.

I am going to a doctor now. I will be back in a while.

Willem,

We are all here for you.

Barton

we love you.

Praying for you. Hoping. Everyone here loves you.

Spam, for the nth time:

I got one whopper of an injection and will soon be heading for a mental clinic, for probably a protracted stay. You therefore won't see me around for a while. I will tell my father how to access this computer and h2g2 and to send messages here from time to time ... he will use both of my spaces, the 'Grief' one and the 'Enauni' one. We will all apreciate messages from any of you ... if you post here, or there, my father will check in here at least every second day, and print it out and send it to me. In turn I will write letters in the clinic, send them to my father and ask him to post them here, when possible. You can send emails too ... same setup there. Don't forget us, please, we'll be back, and hopefully much better then!

Oh, Willem - I'm sorry I wasn't around until just now. My support too, added to the others. God be with you all. Listen to Val, Viv and Ananke - I know they'll look after you. Please take care of yourself. I've just come online to find this - when I was on earlier, none of this had happened. Please know that all of your friends from all around the world are there for you. Please.

x x Fenny

Oh man.

I so wish I had seen all this last night... good luck, Willem. We really do care.

I wish I'd been around earlier too. I urge anyone who wishes Willem well to email him as he asks. His addy is in his personal space, or email me and I'll mail it to you.

Ben