h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I had to leave h2g2 due to the italics continually hijacking my threads with banal suggestions which I know from experience do not help.

I was in the middle of a major breakdown and these actions definately made it impossible for me to communicate with friends here, so I left.

Since then, I reached a very low place. Disability is a difficult thing to get used to. I was very depressed by not being able to get anywhere, no-one would visit and I had no-one to turn to, not even for a casual chat.

However, my Mum by marriage bought us a car, so that I could get around again. This has helped my depression a lot. I made my first long journey in a year.

Also I have been working on the root cause of everything and broke contact with my parents, and that did leave me the lowest I had ever been. At that point all my friends had gone.

At last all those waiting lists came to fruition. I am on new medication, on a waiting list for an op, and waiting for a couple of other treatments as well. Finally I met a consultant who agreed that it was obvious that my back problems were a symptom of a deeper problem. I have a nervous problem due to ptsd, resulting in herniated discs, vv, ibs-d and many many other things. It is wonderful to finally get proper treatment.

Last week the day after going to the pain clinic and starting a new medication, I ended up in A&E, the drug was too strong and I am now on a lower dose. The weekend after that we had a wonderful time, the best weekend for a very long time. It was full of new beginings, acceptance and a readiness to deal with things. I was telling my husband how happy I was, when a car pulled out into us and wreaked our car, leaving us very shaken and with spectacular bruises from the seatbelts and various impacts.

Once this would have destroyed me, this time as we talked with the witnesses about what had happened, about how they were all amazed at the other drivers actions, I realised I would survive this fine. We hurt a lot, the shock lasted a few days, we couldn't move due to the aches and bruising. I am quite impressed at my bruises! Still the other driver has admitted fault and our hire car arrived today, the world continues.

I remember people here who accused me of lies, and now I smile at the memories. People full of hate for me, because I dared to be open about the abuse. People who hated me as I started to get better. They called my abuse lies, they called my improvements lies, so many lies it makes you wonder at the psyche of the people who accused me of them all!I can now move on, I hope those people full of hate can move on one day too.

I made so many enemies here because I didn't fit in, now I realise this isn't a place I wish to fit into.

So I leave again, on a better note. The friends I thought I had have gone, but a few old friends have got back in touch.

Take care all of you.

It certainly throws one for a loop when you're driving along, following all the rules, and then all of a sudden you have to get a new car! Sounds like you two had a worse accident than ours, though *gentle *

Hello there Kaz,how nice to see you
It seems things are on the up for you at last,not before time i must say.I am pleased that your health problems are diminishing too....and that you have found strength to work things out.
So about the accident,but very happy you were'nt any more seriously hurt,and that your car will be replaced without much arguement.
If you intend leaving H2 i wish you well,I haven't heard from you for ages,and got no reply to my last e-mail,but have to admit some e-mails are never received when i use the activemail addy.
I assumed you weren't well enough to be bothered with e-mail....i have times like that!!
It would be nice to hear from you if you feel up to it.

Glad to hear from you! And glad that things seem to be going up for you, although obviously other drivers have a lot to answer for.

Hi Amy, sent you an email but I know you are very busy. Look forward to hearing from you, when you have the time.

Hi Sal, I have often sent you emails which never seem to arrive.

Hi Mina, good luck with your son and if you ever want to say hi, you know where I am.

It seems that I have an injury due to the car accident, which is getting worse everyday. Well I have made the necessary appointments and told insurance. Oh and a side effect of the new medication which is meant to decrease pain, is to increase muscle pain! So it gets worse before it gets better, I hope! Still I only need stay on it for 5 months, until the procedure, which may sort everything out for good, or for a while at least!

Oh and our hire car is a Peugeot 307, we both miss our Renault, and will definately get another Renault when the money comes through. Now we have a car we can visit people again, its so good to see more of the world again - helped the depression a lot. We have orchid fields in Croydon, always worth a visit. We went there on the night of the meteorites and saw over 30, even saw a few through the windows and through the skylight. Its funny how Croydon has such a bad reputation, when we have the largest population of one of the rarest flowers in Britain, ancient woodland, saxon burial sites and ancient cattle roaming rights - so we can walk through fields of goats and cattle.

Just over the border in Sutton, we have lavender fields, and a shop selling gorgeous products made from them. Yardley had bought them to be their main supplier, but when Yardley was taken over, it all went pear-shaped. Grogeous to lie there though, with the bees buzzing, very relaxing.

We went to North Wales, cried my eyes out, it was like coming home. Beautiful countryside and wonderful people. Anyway, thought I was leaving h2g2, so thanks for all the good wishes.

Hello again Kaz.I reply to all my e-mails,as soon as i can,But the e-mail addy you have for me isn't as reliable as it could be.I will e-mail you with my alternate ady's,and hope we might be able to keep in contact easier!!!
Nice to see ya visiting H2 again,maybe you could just drop in occasionally ,when you feel up to it???Take care,i'l do that e-mail later on today!!