h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

My depression has hit really hard and I am not convinced I will survive this one.

In the past certain people have talked about me here saying that my depression etc is made up.

So I know I can seek no friendship or help or support here, until I recover. Finding comments about yourself like that when trying to fight the urge to hurt yourself is very difficult to deal with.

I know when trying to explain this in the past, people have had a go at me, for hiding. So those who hate me and those who alledgedly like me, all feel free to have a go.

Then there are the bitchy comments from people who say 'how can anything be that bad when you have a husband to keep you company?' Well all I can say is lucky you, for living in a world where a husband makes everything fine and dandy.

Funnily enough I cannot take any of that right now. So maybe if I get better, I will come back. I wish I had somewhere to talk about this, but such is life, I shall just internalise some more.

Lets not forget the person who said I was selfish for being depressed.

Like I had a choice.

Maybe I was selfish for being Dads mistress from the age of 11 as well, its obviously all my fault. How nice when strangers come and judge you like that.

I have tried my utmost to move on, but at last research is agreeing with me, childhood years spent being abused lead to inflammation which leads to later adult illnesses. Including chronic pain. So I wish I wish I wish I could leave this behind, but it stayed in my body to hurt me and I don't know how to make it stop.

So all those who judge and make comment, back off.

hey kaz!!!I'm stil here to listen ,just give me a if you need to talk.

Feel bad that you are suffering again, I know I can't possibly understand what you are going thro, but I do hope you come out of it soon

Short words from one who doesn't come here much at all now, but they are sincere.