h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

So I guess I want to start my first journal entry with good news, tonight I encountered somebody who I feared I would never see again. Not only did I reestablish contact with her after, well I guess it's been 4 years according to this, but I learned that she has recently survived cancer. It has really made me think. Yet another friend, mutual between us actually, may or may not still be on this Earth in this plane of existence. She also had her fight, but hers was beyond the stage where victory was possible. I only recently thought about her when *cough* watching an episode of Nip/Tuck *cough*. It made me realize that it had been so many years, what had become of her?

Well tonight it struck me, what if my friend hadn't made it so well? What if she also was stuck in a battle where there was no victory? HT's fate was known to me, even if in the back of my mind since the last time we parted. There was nothing I could do even then, and that still kills me when I realise that I will never be able to properly mourn her. I'll never be able to lay flowers for her, mix her a drink, sign the card Boss like she always used to call me. That is unless she is still alive, but I will never know will I? But I never knew about this other situation...

Would I have ever known?

Probably not... And that scares me.

Everything has worked out however, and it makes me realize that I need to stop putting so much emphasis on what might have happened and focus on what has. I have been given a gift greater than that which I had once believed lost. I have a lot to look forward to and it's time to stop focusing on the bad and the had. I have been given moments that will last forever, good moments that I shouldn't be tainting by complaining that they didn't go perfectly.

Thanks D for coming back, you've always been there for me. My friend. The sister I never knew I wanted, but appreciated when I recieved. Cheers

And thanks for the drink that night...