h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm not saying I'm having my nineteenth nervous breakdown or screaming AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH every few seconds, it's just a desire to sit in my conservative and read the paper and wonder about cyberspace and how to cope with it. Some cyberperson somewhere has told me to blog off and I'm always one to do as I'm told so I have which leaves one cyberspace full of grey women with no identity and me in a state of wondering ah well

methunks the lady does protest too much....

never mind, you can always talk to me, I'm not full of poncing airs and graces, mind you, I have senile dementia so I'm likely to forget what I said AND wot you said

Don't blog off Lucy,

Sorry I never replied to your kind message at christmas - One of my sons is seriously ill at present. Won't return to writing poetry again as the characters on that site that I have encountered are not people I would mix with in real life, let alone cyber life. Trolls like Doom and Pencilsqueezer do not worry me. There is a much more subtle form of bullying - and that comes from regulars - and knowing that even if people do see it - they really can't give a damn about you. I hope you have not felt intimidated off. I have found my priorities anyhow and that is with my son at present. It has been a very scary time finding out he was so ill - never realised it because it took so long to come to the forefront. Things are settling now, but he does require constant care - so writing must take a back seat for however long. I do hope that all is well with you

I hope 2007 will bring you happiness - and please do not blog off. No one on any site anywhere has the right to tell you to do that.

I enjoy your writing very much - You have a wonderful easy, breezy, yet thoughtful style. Don't let small minds hurt you please.

Emma x

Dear Emma,

I'm so sorry your son is ill. It must be a very trying and difficult time. Myfriend's granddaughteris seriously ill and I visited her at the hospital and I'm afraid I broke down. The whole scene was so fragile, human and delicate that it overwhelmed me. I hope there will be an improvement in your son very soon. I know Emma you have the strengths to cope with anything that life throws at you so stay strong for all your families sake.

Didyouever once said that poetry says more about the poet than what you write and yes it is true you can tell the character of a person by what they write. Your writing expresses warmth, emotion love and understanding for the human situation and there cannot be a better accolade than that.

Poetry Corner ah yes there is some bullying and subtle remarks that undermine. My character is such to pretend to take no notice and to not understand what is going on. I didn't get involved in the in fighting that went on recently and have come to the conclusion it was a mixture of backslapping or backstabbing. I did like the fun element of it and sometimes there were good times. I'm having a break and just doing other things.

My love and best wishes to you Emma and your family
lucy xx

My dear lady seagull I never thought you had poncy airs and graces. Hope you don't think I have.Just cos I write about a rich bitch (not very well)doesn't mean I am one.

Anyway dementia is a thing worth forgetting. I thought the other day what a slow learner I am but now it doesn't matter cos I forget it anyway.

What was I talking about and how are the mermaids?

Dear Emma and Lucy,

Sorry to hear about cyberspace being awful. Sorry to hear about the children who are suffering. Things like that tend to make us grateful for whatever we have, don't they. Dear Lucy, my love to you as usual and to that child and as for the blogging off person well... people can do so much with words that they would not do in the flesh.

Emma, I am delighted to see you. I hope you don't mind my entering this conversation. My heart goes out to you about your son. What we dread most as parents is something like this. Dearest Emma, you have always shown warmth to others and I hope all the love and warmth you have given comes back to you and those you love. Let me know how he gets on. If anything happened to my daughter, I don't know how I would cope.

Poetry Corner was so odd because it is emotionally intense and in the end I found myself taking it too seriously hence I banned myself. however, it left me also thinking I had a better understanding of LittleBill and WP and AlsDouble. If you are in touch with them, do tell them I would love to hear from them. All they have to do is click on my name on the board and follow me to here or elsewhere. You likewise, Emma, I have dropped in on the board a few times just for a read and noticed you were not there and missed you.

Take good care of yourself, I am delighted to talk to you again and I hope you don't mind that and my thoughts are with your boy, may he recover. Look after yourself.

You too Lucy.
DIDS/FRED

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Dear ladye seagull,

I feel I owe you an explanation. I have found the corridors of h2g2's
cyberspace rather empty and when I wrote this small tirade it was not to attract attention but rather as a way of coping with computer frustration. I am deeply touched that you came to my aid and offered me help.I am just recovering from a period of ill health and am now beginning to get back amongst my circle of friends.

You are very kind

I have done an Introduction to Counselling course already.
I often write things here because I don't have anywhere else to say them. It is so true what they say, all rats leave the ship when your sister is in trouble. Same with marriages. Oh dear! My wife is throwing a wobbler! I know! I'll throw her out with the fish!

Thanks Lucy, Dids/Freda and Ladye Seagul

My son is improving after a hellish month - at one stage they wanted to remove his spleen - his blood platelets had dropped to below half - then suddenly he took a turn for the better - now its a question of not allowing him to overdo things. It is scary how quickly children can get ill and then start to improve. Still a long way to go. Have been told that this could take up to two years before he is well. Took him to my 'voodoo doctor' as he calls it lol. A naturapath who comes to the island once a month and he has devised a whole diet for him to help with energy levels.

You are so right Dids - even before my son got ill, I began to realise I had to leave poetry corner/ It can be emotionally tense and you get drawn in so quickly. I don't think I took it seriously as such - what I found was the lack of common decency and respect toward others that upset me and in the end made me realise that it was time to go. I haven't even bothered to go and look there recently - and thats good - I feel better for it. No more being wound up by snide and nasty comments - yet I do miss the comaderie that could be there - but its best this way - and really family is so much more important. I love writing, will always scribble something on a pad - but poetry corner is a thing of the past for me now. Perhaps when things have settled, I may take a look in - not sure, don't want to say never of course - because that can jump up and bite you on the nose. Just not for now. Do miss so many people there - wp, lb, yourselves, rose, pip and others.

I do hope Lucy you are feeling happier and and that your book Dids/Freda is going well. My wish is to one day write a book - I always sort of see my poems as like a first rung to writing a book - except I have to fight laziness.

Lucy, I hope your friends grand daughter is improving - my thoughts and wishes to her and her family - nothing prepares us for when our children get ill. Cuts straight through the heart. My son became ill so suddenly, although have been told now, that he had obviously been coming down with this for some months beforehand - but the symptoms were so slight as to be unnoticeable.

Love to both you and you Seagull

Emma xxx

Dearest Emma

It was great to hear from you and I am so very sorry to hear about your son. I can't think of anything worse than a child ill. Love and hugs to you all and the 'alternative' practitioner may well have something to offer, diet and pollution can be powerful I believe. Anyway, whatever.

Lucy and I have a separate relationship in cyberspace as you have probably gathered. (ditto Rose Sibford and Toby Taurus) I reiterate, if you are in touch with WP, do give her my love and ask her 2 co0ntact me & if you are in touch with lb, tell him I finally do understand. I think the more PC had the potential to be cosy, the more it had the potential to do harm - as it did. Part of me, thank God, is ruthlessly focused on the 'I-want-my-work-published' obsession and that probably helped protect me LOL. However, through PC I met lots of really decent folk, yourself included and I do, honestly miss you because a lot of your poetry showed a completely different angle on the world that was an education to me

Still rememebr the stamping seagull LOL

Anyway, take good care of yourself and do drop in on my blog when you can. Words of encouragement are treasured. Likewise, if you ever need a place to stay in London you know you are welcome.

Much love
FRED/Dids
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

PS I noted you and I are both catholics - I will do the candle thing when I'm next at mass and think of your boy.

Love

Yes of course. Then she received another one.

Hello Ladye Seagull,

How are you and the fish and life and cornish pasties?

Alice just got curiouser and curiouser.

The cornish pasties got too lumpy.
I have left them behind with my mother.