h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I already tried twice to find the correct words for putting this in an entry before. But I just couldn't keep from ranting to calm down. Looking at it made me sick though. Spewing bile at other people doesn't help for when you yourself are upset about something nasty or messed up in your life. There shouldn't be an excuse for it. I'm not going to make any more. The actual kernel that is the main point to this entry, in a nutshell, is:

I get upset that my mother turns into a verbally abusive alcoholic at night

, more often than not. Whenever I find myself starting to act controlling in a similar way, it sickens me. I never want to get drunk, for fear or sad realization that that is how I will behave. Or at least am likely to. Did you know that it is not uncommon for most or many of the somatic genes a person has to be similar to his or her mother in some cases?

Gender selection is carried/based on the chromosome that the father contibutes. They are not sure so much about what the rest of the things are that it carries; the information that it encodes.

Now, a person is more than just the lump sum of their father and mother's genes. Environmental factors (including certain important situations) as well as I suspect to be a vague and empirically tricky to define spiritual aspect I'm wiling to guess have a role too.

But I am afraid of acting out the bad habits of my predecessors. Yes, there are the bad habits that I possess of my own. Human beings are far from perfect. If they were perfect, then they probably would not be human, yes?

Animals are not perfect. Rocks and minerals contain imperfections. Sometimes plants get tumors and diseases too. Or do things that are dastardly for the other plants nearby and around them. Fungi are very strange if you look at the whole haploidy-diploidy ways of reproduction they do. Yeah, and bacteria steal things off eachother sometimes. Look at viruses. They are plenty crazy to try to explain specifically and "messed up." People say they ... "Nah, aren't living" and yet they contain DNA and RNA, proteins and other structural building blocks necessary to pirate and takeover the functions of cells so that the cells manufacture more viruses. Is it because they need other things to be present in order to reproduce, other organisms?

Hmm. This journal entry has turned much more biological than I had originally intended, however, that is alright. As long as you also do not mind. If you do mind you can unsubscribe from it and probably are just going to say how you don't like it in a discussion of it, no?

However, if you are willing to say some of the what and the how, to the what it is and why you do not like parts of it, that is better. Or at least, is more helpful to me as a writer.

Make what you will of it or do what you will with it. *Shrug*

Now, let's see here, was it 23 pairs of chromosomes that a neuro and physio-typical human being supposedly has? I can't remember anymore. Got to brush up on my biology. They say O-chem is going to be killer hard. If I can conquer it though and calculus then that's an important set of milestones though. I want to be a doctor or a scientist or a professor. Which is why I very much want to get my BS come hell or high water. That is the first set of rungs. Then I have to go for the MD or whatever masters degree it is that I have decided to do by then. And then... maybe, just maybe, if I can stand any learning more and still have room in my head... (and if my brain doesn't explode before then) I can try and go for the PHD. It's elusive right now though. Sorta like the holy grail. Oh well... Hmm. So anyways,
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And anyway, it's not really my mom's fault. All these backstabby relatives really do not help when added to the equation.