h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

He doesn't post here anymore. I'm worried he's banned. You never know here..they don't tell you these things. Just one day someone disappears.

And I'm sure kea is still very angry with me...I noticed she's not posted in a few days.

They were the two people I felt most comfortable with here.

Too bad I suppose..but I'll be honest I'm very upset about it.

I don't think he's banned. Hasn't he vanished before for a few days, because of various innocent reasons?

I'll try and find out though.

He hasn't posted on Facebook since the ninth, so I'd guess it's not that he's banned from here.

Maybe he's just on vacation then. Although, why he would take any vacation without consulting us first is beyond me

Thanks guys because the mental turmoil I've been through in the last couple of weeks has been *horrible*. I know it's to do with this bipolar illness. And 'loss' lies at the heart of it. I thought we were losing hootoo, and of course the 'move' has personal echoes'. I thought I was losing my country..well the good values of it. People in real life don't much understand either - not really..so I avoid them.

And now this. Being unwell like this h2g2 has been a bit of a lifeline. But I've started eating again so I hope I'll start to get better. But now I get very tearful about all sorts of stuff. And I feel so guilty about upsetting kea. But it was only cos I suddenly got so upset about Lord Wolfden and felt he needed this place...oh well you know the story. But she said it affected her in real life..and that is *simply awful*.

It was my integrity to say what I believed in though.

I think there was a lot of muddle happening. I've removed that 'Lord Wolfden RIP' from my PS in case it upsets kea. It was nothing against her..but just for him. But time to get rid.

When the mania stuff dies down all the feelings of loss come back with a vengance. But hopefully I'll be less disruptive.

But I'm relieved Taff isn't banned. And hopefully he'll re-appear at some point.

But I have to deal with all this sadness now about a lot of stuff in my personal life and my whole life that always happens.

I hope this post makes a bit of sense. I never know lately.

It makes lots of sense.

It does make sense

I'm confident everything will sort out shortly, Taff coming back and you and Kea mending

News from Taff

He's taking time out from hootoo as it's all getting too intense and personal. He says sorry to you, but doesn't want to get back from work, and he will be back after switch over under his new account from home.

Cheers Toybox.