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Leaving home
shenerd Started conversation Nov 22, 1999
All my life I have wandered. Amongst dreams, and then between people. The only place I feel eloquent is when I feel the miles speed under my feet. The strongest sense of freedom I have ever felt was on the road.
I realise these days that part of the fascination is anonymity. I settled in an urban landscape. This fed my voyeurism and I fell into that mirror called technology, where I started to find my voice. Easy hedonism allowed night wanderings and tribal connections, I found my family dribbling on the dance floor.
Everything changes. My people make me who I am. They are where I am from and London is the catalyst. I realise this finally as I prepare for my departure.
The gloss has begun to fade.
I always wondered how it would happen, how I would fall out of the flame. I think when it comes down to it in the end it is a physical need. I am beginning to be aware of my body’s needs as I grow older, she needs air to breathe, space to grow and time to be listened to.
I can no longer afford to abuse her as my container in such a blind and careless way. All future abuse must be carefully planned, plotted and paid for.
Leaving home
shenerd Posted Dec 7, 1999
I'm being a real drama queen I'm afraid. I am only going to Brighton so it is not exactly the Big Move. It is funny how the minor things in life are often blown up out of all proportion whilst the big things seem easier in some ways.
So forgive my histrionics, I often forget anyone might be watching...
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Ant Posted Dec 7, 1999
Ahh all is forgiven Just remember Brighton is cold this time of year, and I should know, I was there at the weekend
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shenerd Posted Dec 9, 1999
Me too! I saw the sun rise out of the sea on Sunday morning and it was beautiful...
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