h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Lady, you're so exciting I've just GOT to talk to you...
lol. hey gorjus. wanted a u and me convo so here it is... mwah. don know what to say.

Hey sweetheart. Ive missed you. Wasnt sure about coming back here as well...Kat Harris wasnt the most welcome person around. But never mind. Im back.

Hows it been going? Had a quick peep at your journal but as you know, things get put in and left out and changed with these things.

Oh I finally texted nick today after five days. She said that
""oh i dont blame you honey. Im just not strong enough to deal with it. Sorry. Hope youre okay. xx"

So i replied asking if we could talk now as Ive got lots of good things to tell her and i want to hear about what shes been up to, but she hasnt replied....*ponders*

My granny is staying at the minute, which is nice as I really like her, but not so nice as she keeps questioning me about how I am and what the psych is doing and stuff she's read about bipolar and stuff. Tiring and annoying, plus rather upsetting in an odd way.

As you can have noticed, Im not doing any Alevels or anything. The doctor has told me to stop worrying about going to college in september as there's no way Im going to...that was nice of him

Thanks for the Darwin email. The only forwards I ever read are yours as they are usually something actually amusing rather than a boring chain thing.

Anyway, for a bit I think this and a very few other threads are all Im going to be keeping up with as Im in a bit of an odd mood.

Hugs and kisses
me
xx

Bit of a bump for this thread. Plus an update on the world.

Nicks doctor told her to think about taking a break from going out with me for a YEAR! I cant even think how long a year is! It might be two days or a gazillion years for all I know right now! Anyway the upshot is that Im determined to get Nick to talk to me more about whats happening and how she feels and I made an ultimate decision that shes staying with me.

I spent the WHOLE of today dosed up on double doses of Nytol to make the day go faster. Really shouldn't do that but never mind. Makes me feel guilty and awful because everyone keeps saying how tired they are and I'm tired too and I'm not even doing anything!!!

Im going to the psychologist tomorrow. I dont want to go...purely for the effort of getting there and having to think about myself properly and urgh...oh well.

How you doing? *Wail* about your phone! One of my simcards has koofed it so Im peeved. It had £10.08 on it too!!! GROOOOWWWLLL!!!!

Anyway get back to me as and when you can. Be good and gorgeous

xx

Hey kitten... Ive missed you too. I was surprised you came back, but its no bad thing at all. But why kat rather than happysuggs?

How things going? I think id better tell you when i have a wee bit more time, but basically im still very single and temperamental about my mood. Still in love with Biology and still headed to uni next year. Manchester first choice and Aston second choice. not much has changed really.

Didnt know there were issues with Nick?? Tell me what happened?

Grans are always great... mines a sweetie. Bit of a hypochondriac thou. And of course i cant tell her things. She shocks really easily. At least your gran knows about your issues hun.

Hey - well i dont send many forwards co they piss me off alot. But if its funny then i send them... i dont normally know whether i should to you, but if you like then i will. Mwah! xx

Now to reply to your next msg...

Yes hun talk to Nick, but please bare in mind she is her own person. If she decides on something you dont like, then dont do anything drastic. You love each other and even if you have to be apart for a while then if its real love you'll be ok and stronger at the end. Obviously you dont want that. Im just telling you how i see it. Dont fret.

Please dont start taking lots of things to make you sleep or make you feel better. Take what your perscribed and stick to that. Otherwise you metabolise it all to fast and you lose face of who you are. Take it from someone whos been there.

And my new phone will be through in a few days i hope so i shall txt you with my new number i promise. You still got the smae number? Email it too me incase i lost it.... i dont think i have but...

Hang in there for me sweeetheart
xxxxx

Umph, sorry Im still around, just...feeling down.

Kat's been more active in things so I can leap back to groups etc without having to restart being a person.
No issues with Nick anymore, sorted out....although...well we're always a volotile relationship but thats mainly due to Nick's hang ups with the world etc.

Now what can I add and say? Erm...I dont know...sorry Im really feeling quite appalling.

I hope you're alright and hanging on in there.
xx

Well all the stuff about me seems to be slowly but surely coming out in my journal so lets use this space for you hmm? I really want to hear about how its going for you and to know anything that I can do to help you. You seem to have a lot of people saying that. Thats good, but I can imagine that sometimes the sympathy may get a little too much? Im here to give sympathy and to listen but Im also here to give you proper advice. You dont have to listen to it or anything, but im not the sort of person who will just hug you and post.
However youve got to be careful. When Im manic what i say will have some really REALLY good and observant things in it. However there'll be a lot of bull surrounding it. trust me, Nicks had the manic letters and said there were some really good things in it, but some she didnt understand at all.
Whatever happens Im here for you though, in the capacity I fill. Im not like the others but you always knew that.
I cant deal with the smilies at the moment for some reason. They all seem odd and scary. Never mind.
Lots of love
Y.V.M
xx

What does V stand for in YVM? Ok the reason i asked about the borderline is coz Stealth told me he thought i had it. Thats why i asked you not him coz you know he'd be biased right? Anyway on reading i really dont think i have it. Right?? Nor do i think i have any other type of mental problem anymore apart from SAD which is winter related anyway so i'll be ok. The general sadness i feel. Thats lost love. So not i only have 3 more exams.... beautiful biology synoptic today and yucky chemistry next tuesday and then then the ball on thursday which i will send you pictures of.

Im jealous of my best friend. Her names Tasha. Shes great, and pretty and a ball of fun. problem is... she used to be a bit of a lose woman. Which i tried to help rectify and did. But now shes met this lovely guy and shes being good and not at all slutty. And im jealous coz everyone wants her and nobody wants me. Its all superficial whinging isnt it. Grrr. x

Victoria

I really dont think yoy're borderline. I do know that people tend (when they are borderline or something similar) to jump on people and suggest they have the same or are ill or something. I dont think that you are mentally ill from what I know about you. I think maybe talking to a councellor and being able to bounce your mind off someone not emotionally attached etc might be useful but only if you want to.

I just went on that youth weekend thingy and now Im back and im EXHAUSTED. I freaked out quite a lot and lots and lots of people were scared of me and didnt know what to do or say or anything. It was kind of....well debilitating to know that I cant even attend something where only about four people knew me before and I can scare everyone so much. I didnt mean to.
Oh well. I got back to thunder and lightening and forgot the alarm code to my house so that really scared me and when I finally got in I just collapsed on the stairs.

What about you? What you done this weekend? Bet its not been as exciting as mine! I had LOADS of stuff go round about me at the youth weekend and well...yeah it was all rather stupid.

About tasha...well...poo to her! I completely see your point sweetheart...but in the end...meh to her! she'll probably end up...erm...with breast cancer and be minus a boob! okay yes Im being mean but I couldnt think what to say. I think your a great person though, not that that will mean much to you

lots of love
xx

mark... hang in there doll... txt you in a bit

*hangs*

Lordy! Are you alright!? *panicks*

yeppers... im fine. twas nice to have a caboodle on msn the other day doll!

Going on an EXTREME pub crawl tomorrow night... no wednesday night. Driving test tomorrow.eeeek!

Tasha... well i hope that doesnt happen to her coz shes lovely... i just wish i could be adored like her... oh well... I do appreciate what you say though. Thanks...

how are you though?

Sorry Im back around...the net was down and I was slightly...comotose in bed and couldn't be bothered to sort it out. Now Im on a bit of a hyper so yeah...and I just threw a bit of a tantrum because we are having fish and chips for dinner and i wanted curry. Hohum.

Driving test happen? Pass or no pass?

Sorry about on msn...Im guessing that was a bit...frustrating? something for you.

Ah well.
Oh Nick hasnt been to college in two days running...oh dear oh dear oh please let her NOT be on a HUGE depression thing....

Fail.

Im going away for a month this weekend, but I'll have my phone if you need me. In england for next week then turkey til results day. Sorry huni, but hang in there - im on the other end of a sms

Frustrating, yes, but i do understand, so dont fret your little head about it. Things are going a wee bit pear shaped up this end, but i hope it'll all blow over...

As for Nick - don't worry. She'll get through it. You need to worry more about u!

Chin up chuck...
x