h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

An ordinary day that had a lot packed into it. I did the ads for the game because Sheryl called in sick. That was wild - funny how your confidence can ebb so quickly when you're called upon to do someone else's job. It worked out okay, they seemed happy. *phew!*

Liz is currently in the Cape. I went over to the new apartment with one box - at this rate I might be fully moved in five weeks...if only I had five weeks. It's so empty there. I walked to the CVS, about ten minutes down the road, in a feeble attempt to find something to put in the apartment so it wouldn't look so empty. All that trip did was affirm that I'm moving to BFE. No bars, no coffee shops (!!!), barely a store for miles. The "town" around the apartments is, well, shabby. A far cry from Brookline, which was a far cry from New York. If I keep going this way I'll be pulling a Walden in another few years.

I ended up buying some bagel chips and a bottled water, as I couldn't find anything for the apartment, and I hadn't eaten all day. Sat on the floor of the living room and ate, felt very, very alone, cried a little, and drove home. Heard the most amazing song from Tracy Chapman - "Promise" - must must buy that album.

Got home, let the cat yell at me for a bit for getting home so late, took care of the insane ant problem her food seems to be giving us. Sat down and wrote Peta, Mark and Anna that I wouldn't be subbing anymore. I've just realized that they asked us on or about July 20, 1999 - over a year ago. Everything's changed since then. Even h2g2 has a new look.

Odd that at a time when I'm most afraid of being lonely I seem to be ducking out of things that would make me less so; but I don't have time anymore for a lot of it. Something had to give.

Anyway, it's been a fun year, one of the best all around.

Don't lose the plot, Kate. Life does get better, even if it feels as lonely as hell for the time when you choose to feel it. I always perceived you as much more 'self-directed' than 'lonely', though...!

Does giving up subbing mean that you're deserting us wholesale, or just giving up subbing, Kate? We might have to have the first online wake...! I hope I'll still be able to ask advice...?

You will never be alone, my friend.

Thanks beetle

Hypoman, you can't get rid of me that easily *evil laugh*

Although - I probably will disappear for a while, as Bell Atlantic or Verizon or whatever they're calling themselves now - is on strike. They can't give me an estimate on when I'll get a phone in my new apartment - weeks, months, who knows. Unfortunately, work is caught in the same trap - we've been waiting for a T1 in our new offices for months, and now they're saying October. I hope my phone line doesn't take that long. But, just to be safe - have a good September!

And you're right, sometimes our choices do lead to some temporary loneliness. Mine have in a way. But I still have that nagging feeling that it's okay and will work out for the best. I think maybe I'm a born again optimist...?