h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

If life does nothing else, it changes. Sometimes so seamlessly you can't tell a change even took place until you look back on it. My life has felt a lot like this since my mid teens. I still get flashes of it from then, a sudden "how can this be happening im only 14 years old?" feeling. Things feel unreal; the trappings of adulthood...I have a flat, a fiancee, a dead dad, a mental illness...all these things should be in the future, far away from the protected insular life that the core of myself still seems to want to live. This is not to say that I feel this way all of the time, nor that I want what I have to go away. Some things I have now I couldn't easily part with, I'm just curious as to when my mental core and my mental extremeties will be reconciled. Perhaps never...growing up may have as many meanings as there are people on Earth, which makes it hard to know if you're doing it right.

I have a strange feeling im on the brink of some kind of epiphany. Perhaps thats all it is, perhaps not.