h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I've been busy, active and sometimes inactive over laziness or not wanting confront great chunks of writer's block that tall, towering over me like some great fortified fortress claiming the skyline for its own dark deeds. In the time since last I entered an entry I've been skulking inbetween writing, around me so much has happened....; people have moved on; events have crystallised into certainties, I've been, I feel that I've been left behind too; trapped in a bleak featureless void where the future doesn't look so promising.

Old friends; funny how I state that. Just chums I've met online for over a year; they too are far from reach, more so than normal, the BBC website broke up casting people far and wide into all directions. Some got on with their lives; the mild divergence snatched so casually by sniggering and bickering bureaucrats trying to ensure that their annual quotas can be met or that they can make a profit by cutting off deadwood holding them back.

These days I'm more of a loner,; never quite posting on messageboards and yet feeling alone. Those other places aren't as warm or welcoming as the BBC site was; full of egos, clique-control freaks and other haphazards that make me want to stand up and shout at each one of them for their "cavalier" attitudes; where self-promotion above others, mockery of people because of their choice of words is justified in their minds!!! Forget trolling hackers, they're the ones that need to have their heads looked at, I know I'm being hypocritical but that's what I think of them! I have seen on so many occasions, actions of an abusive nature thrust at unsuspecting and absent people in the name's sake of mockery just to push some foolish deliquent's Ego through the roof!

Why do I feel like an outcast among them? I've been there for over a year and still I don't understand them, I've tried OG but it's too busy; reminds me of the Castle Mall or the streets of the Metropolis as depicted in the Manga film. Constant bustle and activity, I want to voice something about how I'm feeling; on the old Boards you could do such a thing but now you feel so restricted and prone to people that you know from others are malicious, cruel, vicious and pathetic.
I've tried to go on other forums and yet when I do I can't think of anything to say, so I seem to lurk or I want to find a place where no one of familiarity exists and yet wherever I go I see familar names cropping up.

Perhaps I too should decide to move; evolve away from conventions of these people, like the old ones of the good old days; put posting behind me and focus instead on life- and yet I find myself coming back to of all places that I want to get away from; the very heart of my discontent and why? I'm trapped just on the outside, always looking in at whatever activity is transpiring- whether its my pathetic need to seek out "like-minded" people purely to remind me that I'm not alone, I don't know. But All I do know is that I feel worse and worse about everything each time I vist there.

Why not just invent a forum; can't commit- I tried that before and I was never there, even now it sits in ruins and copious quantities of internet dust.

In the words of the Dying Committee from Spare Parts, Episode Four:
"WHERE IS...THE FUTURE?"

Try this place http://forums.80stv.co.uk/

It's not great, it's not busy-but It's not clique-y either...it's only fault is that it's not busy enough.

I miss the old days too :/