h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I noticed you haven't been around much. I don't blame you.

I'm so unhappy I'm going to get very drunk every day now...it's the only way to cope with things. And I know you understand about that to do with your ex partner. You'll probably be the only person I can talk to here from now on.

I did everything in my power to change my ways here. And all I got was criticism about my faults. i had that all my life as a child...so I'm used to it.

And I have a strong constitution so it'll take a bit for it to kill me.

But I simply can't live with things any more.

Oh and when I realised life has been around for 2 billion years, 3 score and 10 is nothing...so a few less years makes not a happeth of difference.

real life is now a disaster for me...as is this place.

And kea's behaviour towards me is a big part of this...and she knows it.

I've been awfully busy, actually. I've thrown a few posts away on a couple of threads and unsubscribed from one or two.

I've got to do an interview this week for an article I have to write by the end of the month and I've got virtually no preparation done and I've committed to doing a design for a beer label (I'd like to get that out of the way) and weekends are a constant round of visiting and basically being as far from hootoo as one can imagine.

Also, on Tuesday I have to drive way, way, way across town and out into the country to pick up about 40 litres of pigs' blood again.

And I've got two long term art projects I want to be doing -- I've started one and the other has been on the back burner for a couple of years.

And wine to bottle.

And the renovation guys hammering all day.

And laundry. . .




But I *do* make a point of reading your posts each day.

effer

go and sleep it off

stop being a

and stop the talk about death

phone the samaritains or some thing

mainly.....get some sleep!!!!

I'm going to do everything with total intensity from now on.

Its been made abundantly clear to me that I'm a bad person for this community.

So I'll just probably only talk to you...or Taff he turns up.

I'm going to get stuff to sleep outside and cut myself off from the world as I appear to be such a bad influence on it.

For myself i don't see it...and indeed things like foxes and cats seem to still like me. But kea has made it incredibly clear to me what a bad thing I am for this community.

I can't believe she's so hard on me. So really hard. I was unhinged...then HI really hurt me...and now she continues with the hardness.

But this is to be expected from this place.

No Taff.

If ordinary people here make it clear what a worthless piece of sht I am...people I really care about...I'm just going to carry on with the self destruction.

In fact I'm going to enjoy it.

Taff

kea won't discuss stuff with me. She know's she's really upsetting me. its really affecting me badly.

She told me what I did affected her in real life, which is code for her MS.

So I have to live with that. And I can't bare it. She won't talk to me about it. i can't stand it.

Taff maybe only you can help anything.

get a thicker skin!!!

what people write here can hurt and make you angry, i know, but it pays not to take it too seriously

if some one offends or attcks you, dont try to be clever back

cut and paste the offending part and simply put it

"and i think you are a (contraction of richard)"!!!!

then let it go at that

half the problem is everyone over analyzes everything on here!!!!

its not like it's real life or that you have to live next to each other

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everyone.

I had a really close relationship with kea for 5 years...and then apparently I did this awful thing that she refuses to talk to me about.

And its to do with her MS I'm thinking.

I just can't live with it. She's so incredibly angry with me all the time...so it must be something really awful.

anhaga I don't give a toss about anything. Just forget about me.

Sorry I started this thread. I'm unsubbing. Everyone should. But until she talks to me about what I did...I can't live with myself.

""anhaga I don't give a toss about anything. Just forget about me.""

your doing it again!!!!

come on effers Man Up!!

if you upset her that much she wouldn't be talking to you at all

your friendship has taken a hit

step back, and revert to simple chat

how are you, what did you do today, etc. once you have rebuilt bridges, which takes time, she will talk to you about it....if she want to

you are both fragile and strong in your own ways

don't push it, just let it happen!!!



as to the suicide

i have 3 here to keep an eye on, i dont need to be worrying about you as well, if its that5 bad , talk to the samaritains!!!!!

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""But until she talks to me about what I did...I can't live with myself. ""

its a wound

don't pick at the scab

or it won't heal"!!!!!!!!!

If you're feeling in despair or suicidal, it could make all the difference to talk to someone about what you're going through. You could talk to your GP/family doctor, or to someone who is trained to help. Medical professionals and counsellors will be more equipped to help you deal with the problems that you may be experiencing.

Please try to speak to your GP, or talk to someone at the Samaritans, their contact details are below:

The Samaritans Telephone: 08457 90 90 90 Website: http://www.samaritans.org/index.shtm
Email: [email protected] Text: 07725 90 90 90

One of the hidden `posts was mine, I think. Maybe it was language, I don't know. But the `point of it was:




I will not put up with talk of suicide. I can't take it. I won't stay if it continues. It's too close to me.

If it's real talk, get help.

If it's rhetoric, stop it.

Now, I've got too much to do to compose and recompose `posts tonight.

anhaga, it was probably the bodily fluids, the unmentioables < mod >

are a bit touchy and trigger happy thses days