My Dark Hole 3
Created | Updated Mar 5, 2005
Lightshade Romance
Lightshade romance
youll find an inviting eyelash
under the table
long
gently curved
its a memory of the old days
I'll only make it worse
Once again you took me in your hands
I cant believe it
not again
sandblasting your soul
scraping to clear out the hole
I know you're hurting
I won't help you tho
I'll only make it worse
torn edges
flailing heart
life juices pumping
swelling to seal
disgorging in relief
I know you're hurting
I won't help you tho
I'll only make it worse
regrets
choices
not again
i can't
please
I know I'll only make it worse
I'll only make it worse
eyeless faces
mindless
sold to the first bidder
its such a shame
shes so pretty
but they always are
at least shes at peace for the minute
I can't help you
I'd die to try
I'd live to unify your broken parts
I know you're hurting
I won't help you tho
I'll only make it worse
regrets
choices
not again
i can't
please
no
no
not again
not again
please no more
cant you see? I'm at peace now
asphalt dreams
wire wool mind
cotten bud sanity
nail picking ideas
lightshade romance
sinkhole love
dustbin lust
left over
washed up
faded and torn
screwed up
slopped out
neon angels
glaring disorder
sharing moments
warmed up soul
persistant buzzing
shattered heart
A re-evaluation
i lost myself in your memories
now its time to retrieve myself for me
i can lift myself to my dreams
youll try but you can never steal them from me
thats my power
under my sleepless nights
thats how you keep me down
your influence to disrupt
flying to my hopes
soaring into the endless skies
you are just a cloud on a horizon already gone
another day is born
i lost myself in sorrow
no more
its my turn now
its your turn to leave
its my turn to glide oncemore
ill let the winds of fortune take me away from you
you siren on the rocks
go drag some other soul down
devour them
you tried and failed
trap them in your dreams
for nightmares were they to me
youd forgotten hadnt you?
its all too much
its the same again
i wanted something different
fat chance
worn jeans
another exasperated expression
chip paper smothered
haddock choked
broken bottles
empty cans
the view never changes
it just gets colder
half eaten
racked soul
battered
video porn
caption on
sound off
its a waste
sort out your life
youd forgotten
what its like
hadnt you?
magazine pretty
hollowed eyes
blank expression
pulsating
heart foaming
take a hit
forget the clicks
magazine pretty
youll remember in the morning
thats why you try to forget
theyll say they love you
but they only want your body
remove the consciousness
thatll make it easier
morning to dust
Everyday is the same
another sullied breath of fettered air
constant flickering eyes
neons shining
mind disolving
portal eyes
lipless
listless
anaemia
sweat laden sheets
dribble dowsed pillows
screaching alarm
mind cut into
a hair covered arm
a crinkled brow
scraggy beard
morning rise
miday break
tea for all
but what to sate the hungering eyes?
what to reawaken hope?
switch on
stepping in
scoulding
frozen
lukewarm
scrubbing away the years
washing tissues into the collection box below
from dust to dust
from earth were we born
to it shall we return
ashes to ashes?
You meant nothing in the end
you meant nothing in the end
my love is for another
a love undeserved
i am unworthy
i will be composed of her
i cannot resist
ive desired it
she loves another
i find him undeserving
yet ill never live up to him
how much drink can i consume
to hide myself in?
its not worth it
its not worth it
its not worth it
and nor are you
let my liver freeze
let my heart shiver
its all a sliver
from you into my depths
its not worth it
its not worth it
its not worth it
and nor are you
ill be dead before you realise
you cant control me anymore
nice try
goodbye
youve failed
she'll never love me
and yet she'll free me
from your tyranny
Sod it
Im fed up of this slog
slow down
im dying as i drag
another breath
this jogging
day to day
we'll die young
thank god
sod it why bother
thank fu@k
I dont need to
think
feel
know
you any more
ive always deserved better
ive never got it
im destined
i suppose
ill never be fulfilled
sod it why bother?
sew it all together
swimming through the layers of your mind
falling through the shadows of my dreams
realities encountered
never seem so sweet without you at my side
halls of mirrors
reflections all around
which is real?
which is the true form?
i seek rest
i seek a place to build once more
reset my heart
sew it all together
shut me inside your box
lock me up
throw away the key
its your chance to tame me
times fading
mind degrading
ill be moving on soon
soul escaping
where i belong
trapped inside
im drownig again
fighting for breath
your locking me in again
upsurging
upturning
im trying to find
the place where i belong
im drowning
surfacing
fighting
agonising
each breath
im turning
am i deserving?
is this the place i belong?
placing my face
lips embracing
the keyhole
free air
free space
i see you
i want to be
with you
near you
hold me tightly
never let go
is it with you i belong?
caffine high
perfume by the bottle
a pill you cant swallow
hollow eyes
cafinated
desanitised
clawing eyes
scraping thighs
ink run dry
an empty sigh
blotting paper
scribbled notes
hands shaking
literate baby making
intellectual combustion
caffine baby
caffine high
shake it
shake it
spilt ink
grit water
coloured sink
coffee duds
cigarette butts
unplug
fill
switch on
spilt milk
dont cry baby
caffine high
your empty and you know it
acid bathing away the pain
scouring away those feelings
your empty and you know it
its like a kick in the nuts
losing breath and all sense
trying to grasp the air
your empty and you know it
its a slip in the shower
a loose paving slab
a tear soaked tissue
spit bubbles of fear
your empty and you know it
crying at your reflection
solitude the scariest times of all
pacing neon lit streets
staring at a screen
a modern zombie of the nation
your empty and you know it
does just existing fill that void?
you know it wont
I'm scared
A man shaped foetus on the bed
shaking
convulsing
a tear dreanched pillow
a puffy red face
you really are a disgrace boy
its colder it seems
my stomach is stabbing me
icicle knives
flying through my soul
teeth chattering
you do this to me
spinal shivers
matted hair
quivering lips
bloodshot eyes
deep breaths deep breaths come on
sigh
no more tears
salty lips
nose run hands clasped to
a bubbling face
a blubbing mound of human blubber
im scared im terrified
A failure
Baby you're a failure
you think ending it all would help?
be serious
you've not got the guts
you wake each morning crying
its what you do best
you can't change it
you're alone
going to bed staring at the hallogen
nice try
you wont go blind
youll look in that mirror in the morning
it'll still be you
trying is what you do best
failure is all you can expect
why try for more?
My winter how have you come so soon?
You came to me that night
I still remember
a secret love
we never told
I remember you
silouetted in the moonlight
my heart crashing
against my ribs
I miss you
I miss the times we had
Memories, you are a poison
Time, you are a liar
Truth, you are illusive
Instinct, we are one
I looked around
fearful of the sound
of footsteps
outside your door
Downstairs
the voices murmured
you bent down to me
we embraced on the floor
I miss you
I miss the times we had
Memories, you deceive me
Time, I wish that moment had lasted forever
Love, I never forgot that day
Confidence, where are you now?
I remember once we went to the park
walking for hours
in sunlight, providing
a warmth I no longer feel these days
My winter how have you come so soon?
Autumn how did I skip you by?
Summer days I've surely not spent you yet?
Spring dew turns to frost and the plant struggles
Lightshade romance
youll find an inviting eyelash
under the table
long
gently curved
its a memory of the old days
I'll only make it worse
Once again you took me in your hands
I cant believe it
not again
sandblasting your soul
scraping to clear out the hole
I know you're hurting
I won't help you tho
I'll only make it worse
torn edges
flailing heart
life juices pumping
swelling to seal
disgorging in relief
I know you're hurting
I won't help you tho
I'll only make it worse
regrets
choices
not again
i can't
please
I know I'll only make it worse
I'll only make it worse
eyeless faces
mindless
sold to the first bidder
its such a shame
shes so pretty
but they always are
at least shes at peace for the minute
I can't help you
I'd die to try
I'd live to unify your broken parts
I know you're hurting
I won't help you tho
I'll only make it worse
regrets
choices
not again
i can't
please
no
no
not again
not again
please no more
cant you see? I'm at peace now
asphalt dreams
wire wool mind
cotten bud sanity
nail picking ideas
lightshade romance
sinkhole love
dustbin lust
left over
washed up
faded and torn
screwed up
slopped out
neon angels
glaring disorder
sharing moments
warmed up soul
persistant buzzing
shattered heart
A re-evaluation
i lost myself in your memories
now its time to retrieve myself for me
i can lift myself to my dreams
youll try but you can never steal them from me
thats my power
under my sleepless nights
thats how you keep me down
your influence to disrupt
flying to my hopes
soaring into the endless skies
you are just a cloud on a horizon already gone
another day is born
i lost myself in sorrow
no more
its my turn now
its your turn to leave
its my turn to glide oncemore
ill let the winds of fortune take me away from you
you siren on the rocks
go drag some other soul down
devour them
you tried and failed
trap them in your dreams
for nightmares were they to me
youd forgotten hadnt you?
its all too much
its the same again
i wanted something different
fat chance
worn jeans
another exasperated expression
chip paper smothered
haddock choked
broken bottles
empty cans
the view never changes
it just gets colder
half eaten
racked soul
battered
video porn
caption on
sound off
its a waste
sort out your life
youd forgotten
what its like
hadnt you?
magazine pretty
hollowed eyes
blank expression
pulsating
heart foaming
take a hit
forget the clicks
magazine pretty
youll remember in the morning
thats why you try to forget
theyll say they love you
but they only want your body
remove the consciousness
thatll make it easier
morning to dust
Everyday is the same
another sullied breath of fettered air
constant flickering eyes
neons shining
mind disolving
portal eyes
lipless
listless
anaemia
sweat laden sheets
dribble dowsed pillows
screaching alarm
mind cut into
a hair covered arm
a crinkled brow
scraggy beard
morning rise
miday break
tea for all
but what to sate the hungering eyes?
what to reawaken hope?
switch on
stepping in
scoulding
frozen
lukewarm
scrubbing away the years
washing tissues into the collection box below
from dust to dust
from earth were we born
to it shall we return
ashes to ashes?
You meant nothing in the end
you meant nothing in the end
my love is for another
a love undeserved
i am unworthy
i will be composed of her
i cannot resist
ive desired it
she loves another
i find him undeserving
yet ill never live up to him
how much drink can i consume
to hide myself in?
its not worth it
its not worth it
its not worth it
and nor are you
let my liver freeze
let my heart shiver
its all a sliver
from you into my depths
its not worth it
its not worth it
its not worth it
and nor are you
ill be dead before you realise
you cant control me anymore
nice try
goodbye
youve failed
she'll never love me
and yet she'll free me
from your tyranny
Sod it
Im fed up of this slog
slow down
im dying as i drag
another breath
this jogging
day to day
we'll die young
thank god
sod it why bother
thank fu@k
I dont need to
think
feel
know
you any more
ive always deserved better
ive never got it
im destined
i suppose
ill never be fulfilled
sod it why bother?
sew it all together
swimming through the layers of your mind
falling through the shadows of my dreams
realities encountered
never seem so sweet without you at my side
halls of mirrors
reflections all around
which is real?
which is the true form?
i seek rest
i seek a place to build once more
reset my heart
sew it all together
shut me inside your box
lock me up
throw away the key
its your chance to tame me
times fading
mind degrading
ill be moving on soon
soul escaping
where i belong
trapped inside
im drownig again
fighting for breath
your locking me in again
upsurging
upturning
im trying to find
the place where i belong
im drowning
surfacing
fighting
agonising
each breath
im turning
am i deserving?
is this the place i belong?
placing my face
lips embracing
the keyhole
free air
free space
i see you
i want to be
with you
near you
hold me tightly
never let go
is it with you i belong?
caffine high
perfume by the bottle
a pill you cant swallow
hollow eyes
cafinated
desanitised
clawing eyes
scraping thighs
ink run dry
an empty sigh
blotting paper
scribbled notes
hands shaking
literate baby making
intellectual combustion
caffine baby
caffine high
shake it
shake it
spilt ink
grit water
coloured sink
coffee duds
cigarette butts
unplug
fill
switch on
spilt milk
dont cry baby
caffine high
your empty and you know it
acid bathing away the pain
scouring away those feelings
your empty and you know it
its like a kick in the nuts
losing breath and all sense
trying to grasp the air
your empty and you know it
its a slip in the shower
a loose paving slab
a tear soaked tissue
spit bubbles of fear
your empty and you know it
crying at your reflection
solitude the scariest times of all
pacing neon lit streets
staring at a screen
a modern zombie of the nation
your empty and you know it
does just existing fill that void?
you know it wont
I'm scared
A man shaped foetus on the bed
shaking
convulsing
a tear dreanched pillow
a puffy red face
you really are a disgrace boy
its colder it seems
my stomach is stabbing me
icicle knives
flying through my soul
teeth chattering
you do this to me
spinal shivers
matted hair
quivering lips
bloodshot eyes
deep breaths deep breaths come on
sigh
no more tears
salty lips
nose run hands clasped to
a bubbling face
a blubbing mound of human blubber
im scared im terrified
A failure
Baby you're a failure
you think ending it all would help?
be serious
you've not got the guts
you wake each morning crying
its what you do best
you can't change it
you're alone
going to bed staring at the hallogen
nice try
you wont go blind
youll look in that mirror in the morning
it'll still be you
trying is what you do best
failure is all you can expect
why try for more?
My winter how have you come so soon?
You came to me that night
I still remember
a secret love
we never told
I remember you
silouetted in the moonlight
my heart crashing
against my ribs
I miss you
I miss the times we had
Memories, you are a poison
Time, you are a liar
Truth, you are illusive
Instinct, we are one
I looked around
fearful of the sound
of footsteps
outside your door
Downstairs
the voices murmured
you bent down to me
we embraced on the floor
I miss you
I miss the times we had
Memories, you deceive me
Time, I wish that moment had lasted forever
Love, I never forgot that day
Confidence, where are you now?
I remember once we went to the park
walking for hours
in sunlight, providing
a warmth I no longer feel these days
My winter how have you come so soon?
Autumn how did I skip you by?
Summer days I've surely not spent you yet?
Spring dew turns to frost and the plant struggles
