h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

*taking cue from Chnei*
*louder, normally*
Well, she's...quiet . But I think she should be okay soon. I don't understand why Jo'tra had to go to all that trouble of knocking her out, stealing her lightsaber, her droid...kind of weird, if you ask me.

< fweuf >

Well, of course she'll be ok, she's just got a concussion, I think.

Mmm, yes, jo'tra always seemd the most down-to-earth and willing to learn of all of us. He could have just, left the room.

Yeah, concussions aren't that bad. Hers was onyl a mild one anyway. It wasn't /that/ big a boulder.
I guess as we learn, we're all going to have...um, blips? Is that the right word? Loss of conrtol, good judgement? I don't know.
*stares into space*

*looks out window*



Loss of control... *sounds distant*

I think, I'm sure, it's something we all have to deal with.

At least you get to deal with someone else doing, not yourself.

Just say it, alright. I lost control. I still don't have full control. Just, say it!

<>

Chnei, I wasn't just talking about you...I was thinking of everyone...yes you, but Jo'tra, Sc'har, Ma'rol, , Annat and probably more of the others, we just don't know about what happened before we joined. Okay?
*Hopes that this more assertive attitude is taken nicely, not horribly*
*Hopes that Chnei won't explode at her*
<(Cos if Chnei does, Eland may be forced to use the power of the HUG...)>
And about not experiencing it myself...It's simply a matter of time until I lose control, and fall down, fail everybody. A matter of time.
*seems extremely fatalistic and pessimisstic about this*

< *ahem* i already said I was back...>



Yeah, everyone, especially me, since I just did it. Yeah, and probably especially Jo'tra, cause he dropped a boulder on Master Anoon's head. But he only dropped one boulder, didn't he? And he had a reason. Even if it's not an entirely good reason, it's still a reason.


...I didn't.

That's all there is to it. I F***ING LOST IT and there's no one else to blame! I still can't do the whole force thing! *feels anger rising*

*calms self down without the force *

Since when were you pessimistic like this? You're the great optimist. Your glass is half full, it's so half full it's overflowing with half-full ness!!

Ma'rol didn't lose control, he turned.

Besides which, if me losing control meant I nearly went to the darkside, maybe I should be on the darkside. Presumably if it takes all my control to be on the lightside, then would I naturally be a darksider?

And STILL no one will tell me WHY I should be on the lightside! WHAT is so good about the lightside? *gets frustrated* What is so wrong about the darkside? Why do i have to live on the lightside? If I'm supposed to live on the lightside I should damn well know why! And no more of these stupid riddles from people who won't even tell us why they think they know best!

You did have reason. It's reason enough, to me anyway. I've gotten frustrated at our lack of training, any structured training. *Insisting* It's okay.
You've already gotten beter than before, if you think about it. Just then, you were able to control your anger. It's an improvement, right?
Me? Optimist?
*laughs bitterly*
Maybe I seem it. It's something that I'd like to be. But no. I really am not optimistic, I merely am so weak that I place all of my trust into Masters that don't even bother to teach us.
*bitterness and cynicism is rising in her voice*
Not like you, Chnei, you're so much more independent, you don't need to lean on other people like I do. I know that as soon as I try to do something myself, purely on my own, that I will fail.
*the shadow that has fallen across Eland's face stays for a few moments, before being repressed*

The dark side is destructive, isn't it? It is a destructive thing, the dark side. Think of Emperor Palpatine, Darth Vader...Sith Lords, that were consumed from within by their own anger and hatred and horribleness.
Isn't the light side good by it's very nature?
And anyway, which is more enjoyable: Being all angry and hateful and fearful all the time, or being able to relax, and smile, and have friends?
*a small, fearful look comes into her eyes, but disappears quickly*