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Post 1

Saturnine

I'm all over the place. There are things I need to do, that aren't being done. I want to go out, but I can't find a space in the elementary plane of nothing that is life. I can't get back into writing, because I end up being too tired, and there is no coffee in the house. I'm subscribed to TOO many conversations on here, and am on here too long. Being female is shockingly apparent to me, in the form of blood and cramps. The short little path I thought I was on, in travelling to a specific point (ie:agent) has suddenly turned into the M25. I want to be writing poetry, but I can't find the words. Books have suddenly become flaccid and uninteresting. I have no money and no job, and therefore no right to an opinion by social definition, even less of one if I discover how to sign on and receive government cash. I haven't had any kind of functioning relationship for a while, and I miss some people in my life. I want to go and write in New Orleans more than anything. I also want my own flat. But it looks like agent+publishing takes a long long time. And everything is YELLOW. I wasn't ready to be an adult.


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Post 2

Martin Harper

Is anyone ever ready to become an adult? I thought it was something that just happened to you... smiley - winkeye

-Lucinda


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Post 3

Saturnine

Well, apparently I had no choice about it. I did everything everyone else wanted and lost what between childhood and adult years I had smiley - blue


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Post 4

BobTheFarmer

I lost my teen-adult years with a girl.

*wishes he was 17 again.*

*is also drunk and is breaking a pledge he made to himself never to go on hootoo drunk again*

Domt worry Saturnine, when you keep going out but cant pull, thats when the self-esteeem drops right tjhrough the floor.


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Post 5

Saturnine

Sh*t Wai, I hope that never happens. Mind you, I only ever pull when I can talk to someone...

You alright dear?


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Post 6

Martin Harper

> "red lipstick, tousled hair and torn stockings"

Sheesh, do you have any idea how difficult that image makes it to read through that 'am I being discriminated' thread?

-Lucinda (off to take a cold shower)

PS) Bob - was she worth it? smiley - bigeyes


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Post 7

BobTheFarmer

No, she wasnt.

No-ones worth that...

Bloddy hell, why do I always get wierd at the weekend. Im not depressive. I dont really mind not pulling, I just get pissed and when I get home Im pissy.

Id like to inform everyone that I should be ingnored at weekends.


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Post 8

Saturnine

It's the alcohol!! Bob, it's a depressive. And Bristol on a weekend can have that effect...

Lucinda - Well heck, it's supposed to do that. At least I still have the knack *giggle*

smiley - run


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