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For the last two years, on my blog, I've written a 12 days of Christmas series, and so last year, on the first of January, which was my 8th day, I wrote 8 resolutions...

...then failed to stick too.

This year, I had one, with 7 sub-resolutions (http://snowinateapot.blogspot.com/2012/01/on-8th-day-of-christmas.html). So far, 21 days into the year, I've been sticking to two. But a third is being pushed to the front and it's starting to get to me.

My friend emailed my mum - after not being able to get hold of me because I've been MIA from Facebook and haven't been answering emails and having a stupid phone which didn't work. Anyway, she emailed mum, saying she's getting married and she wants me to make her wedding bands. I really want to do it, but I have no idea how to tell her the reason I've been MIA and have disappeared for over a year, is that I've been so depressed that I've not been working and have been progressively becoming a hermit.

My 8th sub-resolution was to reconnect with my friends, including sending them my new phone number, but, as with every time I've tried to write to my friends about it, I can't because I feel stupid for getting into this situation.

I know depression takes all forms, mine's been like this, and it's one thing blogging about it, or writing here about it, but explaining it to my friends - who I know on the whole would probably be supportive - really scares me.

I hate feeling like this, especially when doing this for my friend would be lovely, I just can't shake myself into pressing send.

hi em...

sweet...,i wont pretend to understand the full implications,however i have had mild depression some time ago & believe me if your friends are indeed real true friends they will understand.

the first step is always the hardest..contact,its usually awkward because neither person knows what to say but once you get over that hurdle things become to flow...people understand.

Its your ability to have faith in your friends em.....,life is envariably lonely if you dont interact ....

and yes i do know to a degree,i sorted myself because of my kids and am a lot stronger for it.

you have family that love you & by the sounds of it friends too,i can think of no greater form of trust & friendship than being asked by a friend to use your skill and make something that should last for all time.

i'm no one special,ive been around abit thats all but if you want to chat em...my numbers 07920263743 & if i dont pick up at the time leave a message ill get back or even txt.

dont feel lonely,dont feel alone....

people will always care for you....just let them.

be good...dont get down & hopefully speak soon ok..

wade