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In which our Hero gains a neurodevelopmental disorder...

So yeah, about a month ago I was formally diagnosed with an Autistic Spectrum Disorder. As they are using the DSM-5 criteria I don't have a formal diagnosis of Asperger's Syndrome, but the nice doctorlady said that's pretty much what it is.

This is not even a little bit of a surprise to me.

Though it was still surprisingly emotional seeing it written down in black and white.

For me what this mainly means is I have a framework on which to manage my behaviour. I suspect that being diagnosed as an adult has been a great help in some respects as I've not grown up being told I'm 'special' or 'different' (except as playground pejoratives) so don't expect the neurotypical world to bend to my requirements.

A whole bunch of stuff makes extra sense now too. Apparently being polyamorous is common in ASD people as poly requires clearly defined and agreed rules and boundaries whereas monogamy is all about the unwritten and unspoken and therefore is massively confusing. Also things like my need to eat with matching cutlery, or finding it soothing to fiddle with spreadsheets, and my various sensory issues, and having emotional meltdowns over things that are objectively quite trivial.

What happens now is onwards and upwards, I will never use my condition as an excuse for bad behaviour, but as a means to explain it to people so fences can be mended if necessary.

I also learned a great term from a prospective FWB: "aspie strop", which is basically when you're tired and cranky and have run out of spoons and just don't know how to deal with the world at that point except to be all grizzly and tired.

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A Prelude to Literature

Today was the Kick-off Party for NaNoWriMo Swindon!

We chatted, met the newbies, passed around plot ideas, and ate cake.

I am now the owner of a new NaNoWriMo sticker which is adorning the lid of this very netbook, a character death flexagon (in which all the deaths begin with 'A'), a Plot Squishy (Cliff-hanger: one of the characters is literally hanging off a cliff), and a few character cards.

We are starting NaNo proper on Friday with a write-in at the Municipal Liaison's house.

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A Confession

I wish I'd never volunteered before/during/after the Foop.

Not because I didn't want h2g2 saved, or that I don't think it was worth the effort, but because it killed my enthusiasm for the site. I burned myself out.

Testing things, discussing things, (arguing about things smiley - winkeye).

It all destroyed my love for h2g2. Because I was now Involved in a way that it turns out was antithetical to how I do the interwebs.

And I hate that feeling.

And I hate being a party pooper around the Two Year Hootooversary.

But I just wanted to say it.

Because each any every person subbed to this journal is awesome and I wanted to explain why I'm not around any more.

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NaNoWriMo 2013

I shall be having another go this year.

My story is intended to be a modern fantasy in which the legendary Faerie Realms are a steampunkish dystopia rather than the standard cliche of green fields and dark forests.

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On Sub-Dermal Pigmentation

I have a tattoo.

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