Hey look, a kinda journal thing
Posted Mar 29, 2005
I havent done one of these for ages
Thats cause I kinda havent been around I guess
And in a way I'm being kinda selfish here because I'm only doing this to get something out of my system
You see, I was going through stuff yesterday and I came across a photo of me and Julien. Jul being my ex who kinda had emotional control problems. Anyway, I'm having difficulty coming to terms with the fact that I can still care about him enough to keep this photo. I mean I shouldnt. And it kinda makes me feel twisted and weird I guess I'm trying to anylse myself or something. I wish you could turn feelings off. Or I could get him wiped from my memory or something. Maybe I wouldnt be such a weirdo then.
sorry about that
Posted Dec 20, 2004
We're off to the Lake District, so we wont see you guys for about a week Dont suppose you could keep the blog down No? alright then....
Is this true?
Posted Dec 11, 2004
Somebody a few days ago told me to like grow up and stop attention seeking.
Ok so seriously now, honestly. Do I attention seek? I mean I dont mean to or anything *fidgits* and if I do you should tell me so I can stop
Cause it must be really annoying
Should I be worried?
Posted Dec 3, 2004
I only ask because I dont appear to be able to even spell my own name today
I figure most people can right?
You know one of those days where you just feel tired and drained and blah? Yeah, thats today I just feel so tired, I want to curl up in a corner and sleep. Meh possibly cry as well, but I thinks thats because I'm so tired I'm getting frustrated with myself god I cant do anything today!
well anyway, I think I might sleep for the whole weekend
Yeah that sounds good
well, anyway everyone else have a nice weekend
So whats happening?
Posted Nov 15, 2004
I decided to do another journal since some people might not know I'm back for a while, or some of the stuff that is going on.
Most people by now I think know that Jack, my boyfriend (found here if you dont know him U522350 ) is in hospital recovering from meningitis, or at least they do now And I'm stuck in work or at home alone being depressive and lonely. I shouldnt really be on my own, with the history I have, and I know this but dont have anyone to come stay with me or to stay with (dont argue with this, I really dont, I've thought about it several times). So I've been wallowing and I came back here a) to tell people about Jack and keep people updated and b) well, I dunno to talk to people I guess to stop myself going mad. Most messages for Jack are being left here F1712450?thread=524918 if you want to leave him a message or something.
see you guys around