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Jan 9,2006... First Steps Continued
Posted Jan 10, 2006
I went to see a doctor provided by my social worker this afternoon. In & out in no more than 15 min..tops. Was granted 4 months temporary disability,and given a list of clinics that I can use...the usual procedure. It occurs to me that some may wonder what my "problems" may be at this point so,here it is: I am a bipolar personality with various other issues that I hope to address in the very near future. I have for the 4th time in about 10 yrs self-terminated the pharmaceutical portion of my therapy--each time has had it's negative results. When I am on "cycle" my major problem is a vicious indiscriminate streak of anger,followed by irritating mea culpas. I usually find myself usually on edge each morning...I mellow through the day,usually during my hour long treks to the Central Library,my contact point with the outside world. I have been battling a really long held self loathing and a really deeply ingrained streak of self absorption. But enough..I want to state here that I only wish to tell the truth about myself,and perhaps start to heal on a permanent basis.
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Re: Misconduct Consequences
Posted Jan 8, 2006
I write this with the hope that it may be ultimately ignored-- I would like to have a set of contact links to friendly hootooers--so I can keep up with you all--
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Today in the Chow Line...3Jan 06
Posted Jan 3, 2006
It seems that I have become a point of fixation for one of the many mentally unstable folk down on Skid Row...there is a gentleman who I have never had conversation with who seems convinced that I am a long lost acquaintence of his--very spooky guy I must say. Meeting somebody like this down here is inevitable because of the sheer numbers of mentally ill living on the street here,but still,this is another bit of anxiety I really don't need right now--I am a person who simply wants to go to breakfast without this kind of disturbance.
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Dec 30,2005 ....
Posted Dec 30, 2005
Well now,what to write...I don't quite know at the moment. I have never really excelled at self-disclosure and am rather hesitant--don't want to bore anybody, yet I understand I shouldn't use this page as a method of merely entertaining those who may chose to read this journal. Well some honesty then...I am currently entering my 7th month of unemployment, and stuck at a pivotal point in my advancing years--see, I've never have had a real idea of just WHAT I'm to do when I grow up!! I've had the standard childhood dreams (doctor,cop,sports idol,etc)but I have the classic problem: a dogged inability to finish what I start-a problem that has landed me in this very unenvious position. By the way, I was most recently a telemarketer,
a career that will soon go the way of the Dodo Bird in the U.S. I did it for about 10 years,working at respectable businesses and boiler rooms alike.
Now, as I fumble my way through this journal entry of mine, I admit that I simply got lazy---and let every good thing slip away in the process!! I guess that I am looking to grow up, face reality, and gain a foothold in life as a result of finally facing up to my problems...wish me good luck.
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My first days here...
Posted Dec 29, 2005
Hi,everyone. I am a bit nervous about what I'm doing here...not really used to writing,you see. I haven't really done any serious writing since '87 back in community college,so I'm a bit rusty--I'm fairly coherent most of the time though,so I shouldn't be too hard to follow!! I will ask 2 favors of this community: 1. If I ever pontificate at any time,on any subject whatsoever,please be so kind as to drop a virtual anvil on my noggin !!! 2. I have been using the BBC site as a means of educating myself & breaking out of a self-imposed hermitage that has lasted far too long!!! Please, let me know how about other sites I can visit(and other people here)that can help me along. I wish to thank everybody for the warm greetings given me so far-- I hope to have a long and happy stay here!!&to all!!
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