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Post 21

Andy Barber

Hiya..

Busy, busy, busy at the moment. Things have got a bit worse to be honest. My dad has a matter of a few weeks left now, odd thing is I'm not sure what I should be feeling at the moment. I'm guilty at feeling relief that it's finally coming to an end. Sad because it's not the way I want to remember my dad and angry that all this happening. So I'm on a bit on an emotional roller-coaster at the minute.

But, I'm coping. Just!! Finding it difficult to fit in work with all this as well. That's the trouble. Maybe, I need to take some time off, until this is over..and I've done the griefing bit.

Thanks for your support and words. Always appreciated


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Post 22

Lighthousegirl - back on board

smiley - hug

Andy I am sorry to read that it is getting worse.

I think it is unsurprising that it feels like a roller coaster at the moment. I thinks that it is OK to feel what ever you are feeling - there are no rights and wrongs. I wish I could say something that would make it all feel better, I know that I cant, but please let yourself feel these things.

My Grandfather died of cancer. I did not know at the time what the problem was, I was considered too young (I was 17!) and when he came out of hospital I nievely thought he would be OK. I was taken to see him on what turned out to be the afternoon of the day he died. It was not him I saw that day, just a shaddow of him. Yes for a while that image haunted me, but now what I remember is who he was an how he was before he was ill. In time I hope you find the same.

I am not surprised that you are finding coping hard work, I am sure people around you will understand. If ever you need to talk (and dont want to do so here) please feel free to email me at [email protected] - I may not be on h2g2 as much during the week now but do check emails on that account at least twice a day!

Please take care of yourself and know there are people out here thinking of you

smiley - hug

Light


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Post 23

Andy Barber

Thank you light, it's great to have someone who gives hugs..even cyber ones. It does help.

Andy


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Lighthousegirl - back on board

smiley - hug

How has this week been?


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Post 25

Lighthousegirl - back on board

Just wanted to stop by and see how things are and to give you a smiley - hug

Speak soon


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