h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

....We havent really talked much at all recently (...well, a few days, and my days go very slowly ), so I thought I'd drop in.

(Marcus says congratulations on the pregnancy and that he was going to email you to say so ).

I expect you probably think a lot less of me...what with recent stressed journals and, no doubt, conversations with Stealth. You are a good person, so I know you will support him, because you're wonderful.
Contrary to what he has said, I do not dislike him, but hm. I shall leave the subject at that. **

Im sorry if I've disappointed you, in one of the many ways possible.
You're my longest h2g2 friend, and I love you

xxxx

I don't love you any less, or think any less of you I've not been on much because my modem's still not working I even took it out (it's an internal) and put it back in... Maybe I should have hooked the machine back up (I have to unplug everthing to take the cover off...) and turned it on while it was out, and then turned it back off. unplugged everthing, put it back in... I may do that tonight...

And the only conversations I've had with Kam are the ones on here... He's trying to chase me away 'for my own good'... We know how well that works, don't we? *sigh* Right now, he thinks no one can like him, so don't take that bit personally.

I miss talking to you!!!!

"I expect you probably think a lot less of me...what with recent stressed journals and, no doubt, conversations with Stealth."

O' joy happy happy joy joy... of being slighted and insulted.

"You are a good person, so I know you will support him, because you're wonderful."

It is not Amy's responsibility to support me, and she should think no less of herself for not doing so.

"Contrary to what he has said, I do not dislike him, but hm. I shall leave the subject at that."

Semantics... however it is phrased you do not think well of me, respect me or consider me a friend...

I am not worthy of anyones friendship for many reasons... but those reasons are not your reasons... so I am confussed.


"He's trying to chase me away..."

Not chase you away but ask you not to pretend to feel a genuine warmth for me...
...and not for your own good but because I do not want "pity" or or false friendship out of a sense of "duty".

I am NOT pretending, it's not pity, and it's not out of a sense of duty. And you did say you want me to stay out of your journal. Fine, if you really want me to, I'll not post in there anymore, but you can't keep me from reading.

And, in case either of you decide to get all paranoid on me and decide that I must be talking to the other offsite--I haven't been able to IM for a couple weeks now (non-functioning modem at home) and neither of you has emailed me (well, a group email from wele, but nothing that sparked a conversation, and nothing in it about you, Kam)

If you don't believe me, there's not much I can do, but it's the truth.

*glares nastily at him* Take your anger out on me, as someone who deserves it, but do NOT take it out on Amy. And dont be stupid, I wasnt trying to insult you, if I was trying to do that I would direct it at you were I knew you were going to read it.

Amy is a genuine person with genuine feelings, you should know as well as I do that by now.
Like I said, pick on me, not her.

*sigh*

How about let's not pick on anyone? Please?

*gazes back at glare blanky and unmoved*

What anger would this be?!! Once again I am offended by your attitude toward me and assesment of my character. I do not appreciate being accused of being angry by someone that *should* know me better than to say such things of *me*.
And what anger have taken out on AMy what anger have expressed towards her...? None... I have not been hostile... nor aggresive. You misjudge me and insult me again.

Insult me directly No... make degrading comments and insinuate that you have justification in for suspecting I me of telling "everyone what a bitch I am".

...you do yourself no service by trying to degrade me... or manipulate others and use their genuine and good nature into generating a feeling they should support me.... especially when I am of such insignificance that you can't even remember what sort of person I am/was.

I have not do not and will not pick on anyone... I have sought to pick someone up on their unjustified insinuations...

*Unsubscribes again... removes Amy from Friend list again*

And as you are as Suz noted unproked but correctly that you are a good person then I still do not see why you feel I don't deserved even the illusion of some say over who reads my Journal.

Ok

Sheesh, this is starting to get like RL--I can't do anything right.

thats not true.....
...How are things? I would imagine theres a lot of stress everywhere what with the anticipation of the test results...

Thanks, but it's true...

And I'm trying not to worry, and that could well be affecting my responses, but still...

Amy, as I've said...a number of times, you are So wonderful.
I wont try to patronise you and say "Ohhh, you're probably just feeling down because of all the chemicals running about as a result of your pregnancy"...even if its likely .

Good--I'm allowed to make fun of me (and use the expression 'Hormones rot yer brains!') and so is Tom, as the poor dear has gotten the brunt of my moodiness, but no one else