h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

*waves*

*smiles* () *waves back*

Reading about you makes me feel sad inside.

I can see why you like Njan.


please

Sad? I didn't know I had that effect on people...

*cheers up, just for you*

Njan is wonderful, I'm a very lucky girl to have found him. (Or to have him find me... who knows )

How are you?

err...I'm OK - I guess
sometimes my existence bothers me

Thank you for cheering up *begins to feel happier*

*and happier still*

Yes, we're all lucky to have Njan in the world.

Oh dear, that doesn't sound good. I know just what you mean, though.
If you're going through hell, keep going... as someone said once. Njan said it once, but it was a quote from somewhere...

What's keeping you at just "OK - I guess"?

Yay! That's good Happy is good

Yep Now we just have to convince him that. Although I think I'm doing a good job.

- Poet.

It's, I don't know, I just feel like that a lot for some reason. I'm not really going through hell, except I still don't see the point in still going through. Actually, I think the only reason I'm not REALLY going through hell - I've lost that thought. I'm beginning not to be able to think properly, maybe due to not having a really good sleep in a while, or because school's getting harder, but probably for some other weird reason (causing me to lose such thoughts - and indeed not come up with them). And I ramble about really stupid things sometimes.

Anyway I really (I've used that word a bit haven't I?) don't care if I'm not happy - what is it going to do?

Needless to say I'm not very popular at school, and my self asteem is down the toilet (where, I would argue, it should be)



You've had it worse than me, and you deserve Njan.

I'm doing that at the moment. It's very hard to focus on anything; my mind buzzes but it won't actually come up with any conclusions. It's making it really hard to work. It's frustrating, because I know I can think, and I know I have ideas, but I just can't find them.
Losing thoughts half-way through thinking them is just.. .ag. It sucks.

Ah, well. Listen. If you were happy, you would care about it. Being happy is... it's good. You want to at least get comfortable. That is, content. Not comfortable where you are just too comfortable. Does that make sense?
It's 11.53 on a Sunday night and I really should be in bed, but I'm not.... because I hate school.... (see my journal if you're interested)

I'm fairly popular at school, I'd say. I mean, I'm not popular that people constantly want to be around me, I'm not status-popular, but I'm popular in that I've got a fair few friends who actually like me and whom I actually like back. I'm quite lucky there. Shame that none of them are in my class, really.
As for self-esteem, I don't have very much of that either. I swing from extremes - I either hate myself, or I'm so full of pride you could pop me if you poked me with a pin.

I'm sure you're a damn cool bloke; in fact from what I can tell so far you are.

- Poet.

hah! Youv'e practically take the words out of my mouth! That's exactly what I'm like (Today it just got worse). I can't remember as much as I used to be able to, and I can hardly remember much new work from school today. I've found that I realise some really brilliantly cool (generally philosophical) idea, and also that I'd come up with that before and forgotten it. Maybe I should write my ideas down? Nah that's too similar to schoolwork.

Happiness? I know it feels pretty good, but I don't see a lot of point in it. I don't seem to be able to acheive it anyway. I don't care, I like the way I am.

I have only a few friends, but they are good friends. After observing all the other popular people at school I'm not sure I want to have to be like that. I'm a geek and I like what I do. People (and I'm surprised about this) say I'm a good person/friend but I don't think am as much.

I have a friend who is in rather the same position as you, except, from what I can gather, for different reasons. He, too, likes to draw blood from himself using sharp objects. Actually he prefers blunt objects because they take longer and hurt more. I've been bad to him . He said it was for attention. Any ideas on what I could do to help him?

Don't bother writing ideas down. for a start, it takes too long, and you tend to think faster than you can write even when you haven't got many ideas and so it'll only slow you down more. Well, it does in my experience anyway.
Maybe type them out, if you can type really fast. I type faster than most people I know but still it's not fast enough.

With feeling satisfied with who you are, sometimes you need to just... have ambitions, you know? That probably sounds odd, I don't know. You need goals, it kinda helps you move on. What are your goals? Job stuff, etc?

I have a handful of good friends. Not as many as it first seems, but that's only coz .. no, I don't know. Not everyone is completely true.

I'm at school and the bell's just rung, but I do need to point something out. I do not cut myself.
... anymore.
I used to, it used to be the only thing I could think about. Had to hide it, it was awful... I'm over it now, thanks to Njan. One of the reasons he's so special.
I understand with the blunt objects thing. I don't actually see what the point of sharper objects is, because it is more obvious, and takes less time... *shakes head* I don't like to think about it anymore.
But still.
Tell your friend that it is for his own good that he stops. I used to argue that there is no reason for me to stop because it was my body I was hurting and it was my choice. But I did indeed get addicted...

I have to go, English lesson beckons...



I'll finish this post later.

- Poet.

...but I did indeed get addicted, and it took over my life. It was most singularly terrible. Please don't let him get to that stage. I dont' know him, but I don't want for *anyone* to suffer like that. * to him*

Look at A603901, and the link at the bottom to http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injury.html Secret shame. Good site.
It'd be good to look through those for information.

- Poet.

I type S-L-O-W it takes me a while to write these mesages, but a lot of it is thinking.

I have no ambitions, and no goals for my life. I don't know what to make them. Actually, if anything, they would be of philosophical and environmental natures. Not much else matters to me. It would be no good having a goal that I didn't truly want fulfilled, it should come naturally --- maybe. I'm just going to have a look and see what I do
in the future

Did you get the english essay done?

THANK YOU for the links! I have both read them and passed them onto him. I already knew a lot of that though and I wonder if it will help. I suspect I'll need to find some other way of helping.

THANKS

No ambitions, no goals at all? What about smaller things, like... What do you want? Do you want more money? A girlfriend (or do you have one?)? Do you want to learn an instrument? What about a nice pair of shoes?
And what do you enjoy doing, do you like to listen to music? Going for walks when the sun is low and the wind is blowing gently? Or in the rain? Sports?
Things to live for.

No, not yet. My teacher gave me til Friday to do it, and I've got to do an RE one tonight.

No problem - I'm glad that helped. I just posted a long post in a forum called "Not healthy" about SI, so if you're interested, look for it - <./>MP50758</.> <-- somewhere there.

gosh, I'm tired. Days are long now I'm back at school after half-term.

I guess I have smaller goals - when I got up I wanted a shower, so I walked along the passage until I reached the bathroom - but that wouldn't be what you meant I guess. This sort of thing changes with my mood, as do pretty much all my views on anything. I do want a girlfriend, except I don't believe that will happen to me. Njan thinks it will . I've never had one, and it can't just be anyone, you know?
- and I absolutely am not out for money, or a nice pair of shoes .

I enjoy all those things, except rarely do I get to do much of them - except music. Listening to music is most of what I do. I like most music - including most on your lists - except opera I can't understand or most of Nirvana but I like the a lot of both their tunes, and if I knew the words I would probably like them more.

You gonna do them ??


I feel I'm gonna be tired all year


)Orange is my favourite colour )

whoops, it didn't register
Now it will have

I'm sure it'll happen to you. It's good that you say "it can't just be anyone". I was in my form room at school yesterday lunchtime and I heard a group of people in my year discussing their lovelives, as if partners were disposable like toilet paper. Of course, feeling that you have to find "the one" straight away can make things really hard.
How can you not want money? I don't mean to be a millionaire, I just mean money to go and buy what you fancy... I don't know. Perhaps that's just a girl thing, and the line is a bit blurred to me because Njan is very similar to me on that front.

Use google.com to search for lyrics...

I'm not going to do them Well, I did most of the RE in the hour before it was handed in, and I'm doing my English today and tomorrow. Probably tomorrow because I'm a slacker.

Njan is staying at his friend's house for the whole weekend. I'm really missing him.

I feel really weird today. I had a lot of sleep last night, but I went to sleep when drunk (I smuggled a couple of bottles of Smirnoff Ice upstairs when I hadn't eaten much all day). Had nightmares, and now I have a damn short attention span. Count yourself lucky that I'm actually posting.

How are things right now?

Ah! Mine is blue.


- Poet.

It may happen, but I doubt it will be in the near future. I don't really meet enough people for that .
It'll be pretty good if it happens, but I'm not exactly looking. I don't believe there's "the one" - I'd say you do? - there'd just be some really good people out there (somewhere that I don't know about )

no, I'm probably about the only one my age who thinks the way I do about money. I don't NEED what I fancy. And I would only go and get more once I'm done spending on whatever catches my fancy at the time. I try to not let advertising work on me.
- everybody's different I reckon. Shopping's not just a girls' thing.

I've never been drunk, or come into contact with much alcohol (except I get it all over my hands in chemistry lessons ). It's been offered to me but I turn it down. I don't know why.
Sometime schoolwork can help get your ming off things - (maybe if it's interesting or you're learning something) ?

Things right now? Medium amount of sadness I guess. Head's a clutter as to what my actions should be in response to some things. And I don't know whether or not to regret my actions, so I just feel worse for some reason (?????) And there are some other things that aren't the clearest in my mind at the moment, so I won't try to put them into words. (I've learned not to bother anymore - I always end up deleting the words).

I don't like whinging to you, you've copped more than me. (Actually, I don't really like to whinge to anyone, and this sort of thing is rare - mainly because I'm not concerned enough ...... that didn't come out properly I usually would have scrubbed that .

Oh well

I hope you see Njan soon

I am lucky you post

*smiles* Don't worry, it'll happen.

Oh, I know I don't need what I fancy. But if I can have it... I will
I never really notice adverts as adverts. TV adverts I see as mini funny things.

Ooh, teetotal! I'd say you should get into drinking it, but it's unhealthy anyway...

I rarely regret anything. Maybe for a couple of seconds I will be embarassed about being wrong and regret saying whatever Idid, or whatever, but never really more than that. And I'd say I have a fair amount of things to regret. Then again on the other hand, I tend to think things through a lot before doing them, so I can justify them to myself afterwards...

..But I know what you mean.

Medium amount of sadness?
Me too, to be honest. About nothing in particular, just feeling sad. Not upset, just sad...

I don't believe that just because one person has been through less than another, they deserve less (...searching for word...) [shoulders to cry on, but that implies more people, I just mean one person]. A thing can mean a lot more to one person than to another.

If you ever feel the need to whinge, though, ears are here.

sorry for the delay in reply: real life kidnapped me!

- Lisa

mmm... no, I think I would only want something like that if there was advertising around, and I'm not going to be dissatisfied about something that I don't have. Of course I am, in practice, a really BIG hypocrite, as I do spend all my money so I don't know what I'm talking about. It's amazing how my mood of the day changes me.

It's not absolutely about regretting my actions - more just plain not knowing what my actions should be. Anyway you said you know what I mean.
Please don't mind me asking something like this, but wouldn't you regret your self injury? (unless that has something to do with meeting Njan)
- thinking things through is what confuses me about my actions.
-Should I trade a whole lot of energy powerind an air conditioner for my personal happiness?

Yep, happens to me a lot, and also I get upset. I am a very "disturbed" person I guess.


I just think that some peoples' concerns are very petty compared to others'. Maybe or something like that.
I've been whinging the whole conversation practically

Don't worry about delays. If you've got something to do with real life thet's good
- unless it's bad like what I heard happen to Njan (which is probably likely isn't it?)

Thanks Lisa

I haven't used a great deal of smileys so I'll use 2 now-