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T.B. Falsename ACE: [stercus venio] I have learned from my mistakes, and feel I could repeat them exactly. Started conversation Oct 18, 2003
i dunno why I'm writin this, cus I dunno wot to say.
you've hurt me more than anyone else has. you've reinforced the idea that I cant let people get close to me and now it feels that in the past two years I've lost the two most important people in my life. I don't really give a sh!t about life anymore, and I feel this close, ][, to reaching out and touching someone, probably with a smack in the mouth, and probably someone who doesn't really deserve it.
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the other omylouse "multiply (1*6) by (6*1+0+3)!" Posted Oct 19, 2003
I know how much I've hurt you & you must believe me that Im so sorry 
I wish so much I could change how I feel so I don't have to put you through this. But I cant. Ive tried Mike, I truely have. You think I like feeling like this & hurting you? Surely you know me better than that. Its killing me, but I couldnt not tell you & continue living with the way I was feeling. It wouldn't be fair. To you or me.
Ive been trying to avoid the cliches such as 'Its not you its me' & 'Can we still be friends'. But i guess both are true. Although I reaslise the latter could well be impossible, at least for now. Cause whatever you think I havent stopped caring, Im just not ready to settle down yet. I'd feel trapped & that could lead to worse difficulties later on. You must have known/guessed that getting engaged at such a young age & just before uni too was a risky affair. I thought that love would keep us going, & it would if i was older/more mature. But I not. Its just who I am.
Please say you can at least partly understand how Im feeling. I'd hate for you to think that I was just being an uber-bitch by doing this.
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