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You can call me TC

We think our Mum is slowly letting go. My sister has been sending e-mail reports on a daily basis this week. It's a bit difficult to put it all in a short journal, but today she apparently didn't eat or drink anything, although meals had been prepared for her. When the carer came to give her her evening meal she hardly even ate any of that.

I try and phone evety day. She often takes a while to answer the phone and is out of breath and often confused when she does answer if she is not sitting in her armchair which is right next to the phone. She has trouble walking and until she started using a stick a couple of weeks ago, was falling more frequently.

My sister is exhausted and at her wits' end. All I can do is phone, but I am worried Mum is dashing for the phone and might fall. I am flying over in February. If sis hasn't found full time care or a place in a home for her by then, at least I'll be able to stand in for a week.

I don't see her holding out for her 100th birthday, though, which would be in November this year.

Sorry. Just had to get it off my chest.


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2legs - Hey, babe, take a walk on the wild side...

smiley - hugsmiley - cuddle Must be so hard, especially 'watching' from afar smiley - goodlucksmiley - hug


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Wand'rin star

I hope it can be a gentle letting go for all of you. You (pl) have done a great job of keeping her. A hundred is only a number. You have much to celebrate, Thinking of you. smiley - hugsmiley - hug


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paulh. I write captions for pictures of cats. The shame! The shame!

My father will soon be 99 as well, and it becomes a question of holding your breath at times. Will the end be sudden, or drawn out?

smiley - hug


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Recumbentman

99 is mighty. Dashing for the phone, I won't be, if I ever reach that.

There is a lovely piece by Jorge Luis Borges about how his death has already begun (in his middle age). "There are doors that I have closed that I will never open again..."

It is, with luck, a very gradual process. It has begun for all of us.


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paulh. I write captions for pictures of cats. The shame! The shame!

To those people who have said that you should put more life in your years, not more years in your life, I say this: you may someday find that you want *both.* smiley - winkeye


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You can call me TC

Both very apt comments. Thank you both.

We were brought up to be very pragmatic about our own mortality.

My mother won't live for ever, I just wish her a pleasant and painless journey.

She was much perkier tonight on the phone, just like old times almost, or at least, like she was just before Christmas. I phoned my middle son after speaking to her to talk to him about it as I think he understands the best. He knew what I meant.

When one comes, another has to go. Six months after said son was born, my husband's aunt died.


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deb - I'm in love with my soup maker & I don't care who knows it

It must be hard being so far away. I also wish her a peaceful passing when the time comes smiley - rose

Deb smiley - cheerup


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You can call me TC

After the encouraging phone call on Wednesday, yesterday was a nightmare. The neighbour called in and found her fussing around and expecting our Dad home, but she didn't know when and she couldn't find the telephone number - a typical dementia scenario. He contacted my sister and she went round to find this situation confirmed, and Mum was having hallucinations (things crawling on the carpet and one of the pot plants having huge white flowers).

We have now put 2 and 2 together and suspect a UTI and Sis has managed to get a urine sample (difficult as personal hygiene is not something she will let us get involved with). On the basis of this, antibiotics have been prescribed and administered.

Just got an e-mail saying that things were much better this evening and the hallucinations and delusions are over.

One unfortuate side-effect is that my sister has booked flights to come to Bonn next week, too, and she won't be able to come if it's too worrying a situation at home. She already had to miss out on flights she had booked to come to a family gathering when Mum broke her arm. If things continue to improve, I really hope she can make it, as it is not often all my family can get together.


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paulh. I write captions for pictures of cats. The shame! The shame!

Both of my parents had urinary act infections from time to time. I have no idea why this is so common in the last years of a person's life smiley - huh.


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Sho - gainfully employed again

smiley - hug it is hard to let go. I hope it is as … painless? not sure that's the right word, but I think you know what I mean. and more smiley - hug


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paulh. I write captions for pictures of cats. The shame! The shame!

I think I do.smiley - smiley


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You can call me TC

I'm now back from having spent a week with my mother. She gets very tired and on some days it was pointless asking her to get dressed. She just sat in her chair, watching TV, or not watching TV. However, this sounds worse than it is.

She came to meals and I tried to get as much liquid in her as possible, which meant several cold half-cups of tea were left by her chair as she dozed off, but better three half-cups than no liquid at all.


I managed to get her to the hairdresser's once (she hadn't had her hair done since before Christmas) and also had a urine sample tested which showed "all clear".

We had a few conversations, but she can't concentrate for long, and loses the thread after a while. She was happy to have me there, but didn't hang on to me and ask me not to go when I left yesterday.

So now that the scare with the infection is over, she can probably carry on like this for ages yet.

The house is tidy and clean on the surface, but structurally showing signs of neglect, and my sister is talking of big projects like renewing the heating system. Presumably when our mother does pass, and/or goes to a home, the house will be sold, so I am not sure it is worth investing in this.

The heating works with uneconomical night storage heaters which still work OK, but they only have two settings "on" or "off" and when it's mild outside, the house gets rather over-heated. As it's February, we can hardly turn the heating off, but it would be nice to be able to turn it down!

Now she walks with a stick, the danger of a fall is minimised, so, as long as somebody looks in every day, and doesn't mind if she's not dressed, and has gone to sleep, all seems to be OK for the time being.


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Post 14

You can call me TC

Having read through the thread, I must just add that my sister did come to Bonn for my grand-daughter's birthday and to see the newest addition to the family. She really enjoyed it, especially as my other 2 sons also came and we had a huge family gathering - Son No 2's mother-in-law kindly invited us all as she has more room.

In the meantime at home, we arranged for the carer to come in every day whilst she was away. In the end she said of our mother: "I don't think she even missed me!"


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paulh. I write captions for pictures of cats. The shame! The shame!

smiley - laugh

A few days before my mother died, I visited her in the nursing home, and she gripped my arm tight, begging me not to go. Maybe I'm romanticizing things, but I remember that she had been harping about what the rest of us should do after she was gone. She was always eerily perceptive about things. I think she knew the end was near, and was trying to ease our paths. She always did want to make things better for the rest of us.


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