skugga (ACE), keeper of shadows, lots of rats, no betta splendens anymore and badly drawn vampires

Hi,

and sorry to everybody who cared and wondered what happened to me.

After losing my boyfriend, losing my job, finding a new job and and and (too much to tell now) I'm back here and try to feel comfortable again.

My wonderful boyfriend left me one week ago telling me he can't stand living with me anymore.

I'm at a friend at the moment after cutting my wrist.

I don't know how to carry on.

A guy I never had seen in RL but knew quite good - and liked very very much - decided not to live any more yesterday...

Can't say much more at the moment

Anyway, that means I have to do a lot of work at home, mostly related to the facts that a) the amount of fish tanks is up to 4 now, two of them with betta splendens just starting to breed, and b) I'm deeply into job applications since about a week and have my first interview tomorrow. Wish me good luck, please, I hope so much to find something new and to get out of the way of our HR lady...

... I was invited - I'm an ACE now...