An offer I can't refuse...
Feb 9, 2012
For the last 8 and a half months, my sister was pregnant. 
Last night, little Constance (3.1kg) decided to show up at last. 
This morning, my sister called to tell me, and to ask me to be the godmother. 
Apparently, she is the most beautiful little girl in the whole of the universe, and possibly beyond. 
I'll see them this weekend. 
 ... Does it mean I'll have to help her sneak out to the ball with her glass slippers on, or something? 
 Now off to change my nametag, if I can remember how...
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Nothing but a heartache...
May 30, 2011
WARNING : I'm writing this more for myself than for sharing it, so do feel free to skip it, I won't blame you.
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In February last year, I start having a social life and make friends.
In July, one of them becomes more than a friend, and it's wonderful.
I'm in love, so is he, everything isn't perfect because we're not, but everything is just right.
For the first time in months, I'm feeling confident and, well, happy.
We're talking of how we'll move in together once he has passed his exams and got a job, even contemplate having children some day, not now of course, but in a little while.
Two weeks ago, I spend a couple of days in London, but we email several times, and we meet up as soon as I'm home.
Everything is fine, we're in love, the whole world is beautiful.
On Friday, he phones, sounding pretty distressed.
Long story short : it can't go on, he feels he doesn't miss me as much as he would if he really loved me, and we should just stop seeing each other.
I try arguing that maybe he's stressed by his exams, and that's why he doesn't miss me: he just has other things to do. If we just wait until after his orals, he might not feel the same at that point?
He doubts it, he won't change his mind about it.
It's over.
So I take a train to my parents' and cry.
They keep me busy doing some stuff, but it's still hard.
Saturday is almost better, I have a giant migraine so can't think of anything; at least I know why I'm crying.
Sunday brings a conversation by text messages, then on the phone.
He still loves me but some things just can't go on. He can't ask me to change my personnality to be his perfect woman, and he couldn't change his either, and that's why he preferred to end it.
I still don't understand the logic in there, but he then adds that he made the decision on the moment, and he's now been thinking about it, and would I forgive him and we could try and mend things up?
I'd love to, but won't he react in the same way the next time there's a problem: act first, and then think?
It hurts enough first time, I don't think I'd like a second serving of the same...
So it's really over.
It's not really anyone's fault, I don't blame him because there's no point in that anyway, he's just as hurt as I am, probably even more because he's feeling guilty of hurting me.
Somehow I feel better now that I've stopped hoping we could mend this. It hurts a little less.
I've had a big disappointment in the past, that I didn't expect. ( http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/h2g2/brune...ead=5638349&post=65680832#p65680832 )
I thought my life was over; turns out it wasn't, and I even ended up better off after a while.
So I don't know when, I don't know how, but I do know it'll be all right in the end.
In a couple of months, maybe, I'll look back and think it wasn't that bad after all.
Not now, I can't. But I will.
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100% pleased with my job!
Oct 1, 2009
I started work today at the stats office. I've been affected to a secretary job, which sounds interesting.
There are two other secretaries in the place, both of whom seem to be nice people. The other, non-secretary, colleagues look nice enough too.
There's a canteen 5mins away.
And a coffee machine on the ground floor.
Also, I'm moving out of my parents' and into my new flat this weekend.
A positive day. 
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Sep 26, 2009
Well, today was my birthday.
What else to say? 
My family and I are going to the restaurant for lunch tomorrow, and then a puppet show (hey, last day of the Festival!).
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The Festival
Sep 17, 2009
 The Festival - world festival of puppet theatres (see A56316909 for more detail  ) is starting tomorrow.
I'm going to be helping out at a cafeteria thingy every afternoon, and going to shows every night. 
And it's a great way to gather some more material for an Entry!
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