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Whatever...
Feb 20, 2003
Isolation-killing me.
My spirit cries 'please set me free'
A revelation within my soul.
I will do this, I'll reach my goal.
The goal I seek cannot be measured.
The goal I seek, is to be treasured.
Not by you, or her, or him.
But by myself, so deep within.
I want to hold my head up high.
My spirit, yes I'll let you fly.
I wont give up, even when I fall.
I'll get back up, I will stand up tall
I can do this, I'm on my way.
A little closer everyday.
Right Now...
Jan 15, 2003
Sitting, waiting, wondering, sadness.
Waiting for a word from him telling me its ok.
Wondering why he doesnt care.
Wondering why I do.
Sadness for his careless way.
Sadness for how much it hurts.
Back to wonder, how did I fall?
Why did he not at all?
Doesnt he know how special I am?
I know how special he is...or was?
How can he be so cold?
Why isnt he contacting me?
Why do I ask such silly questions?
I know its best that hes not in touch.
I know hes harmful to my soul.
But when things were good between us, I was on top of the world.
Now I feel so low.
When will I be ok?
When will I not care?
Sitting, waiting, wondering, sadness.
Another night...alone.
Things I Miss...
Jan 9, 2003
*friends I used to know
*things we used to do
*the boy
*the muppets
*my innocence that unbelieveably did exist at one time
*licky and buffy (my cat and dog)
*my figure ...bah!
*feeling comfortable around new people
*being able to be a clown, and make a fool of myself (on purpose)
*guns and roses
*the easy way...
Interviews
Jan 4, 2003
I would like to interview a criminal. Perhaps someone who made a mess of their life on heavy drugs. I would also like to do a documentary of some sort. I guess right now though, I would like to shut my mind off and go to sleep.
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Last posted: Jan 19, 2003
