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Uhm...
Jul 4, 2002

(7 replies, Latest reply: Jul 19, 2004)

My Last Journal Entry... Ever...
Apr 12, 2002

Yes. What you are reading may very well be my very last h2g2 journal entry, ever. After some pondering back and forth, up and down, I have decided to stop posting my thoughts and comments here, and, here are some of my reasons.

I want to be able to change my mind and delete an entry after posting.

Rants and raves belong in a journal. But some rants and raves - if not all - are for the moment. I want to have the possibility to stop getting postings to something that is day old and over with. Or, to decide at any moment that I don't want to share this with you after all. Or, - simply because it is *my* journal - I want the possibility to delete an entry, period.

I want to be able to change my mind and edit my entry after posting.

Some thoughts and ideas are muddled the first time around, and are often in need of editing after a while. I want to express myself clearly, both for my own sake and for you who are reading my entries. Some may say I already have this possibility - that I can always post a comment of my own, or write a new entry. If that's your opinion, you have missed the point. I want the possibility to unmuddle the original entry, to add to it, to have a small 'updated' appear beside the original posting date. I also want the possibility to go in and correct mistakes I have made, like when I wrote that Big Bird was in The Muppet Show, for later to remember he wasn't. This last may sound like a trifle, but it was just an example.

I want to be able to move or delete postings to my journal.

Some comments and hugs and whatever are treasures, and I want the possibility to put them somewhere where I can get easy access to them. Other comments may not be welcome at all, and although most people here are friendly and only have nice things to say, I might want to not see a particular posting in my own personal journal.

If this journal worked as I want it to, if this really was my own personal journal, you would in a day or two - ot at any point - be able to see changes here. You would be able to see I have changed my mind about something, added something, developed my views, changed the spelling, added a link, changed a broken link and had the entry out of moderation, commented on an interesting posting buried in a thread, deleted the whole thing...

Anybody interested in what's going on in my life will have to go here: http://www.livejournal.com/users/leeneh/

Thank you.

(6 replies, Latest reply: Jul 4, 2002)

Travel
Mar 19, 2002

I'm dreaming about/planning summer holiday right now...
Anybody going anywhere this summer can get loads of packing tips here: http://www.henricson.se/mats/upl/

(258 replies, Latest reply: Sep 18, 2002)

Dreams
Mar 18, 2002

I've been lurking all morning - between cutting and sanding supports for what is to become my new stuff shelf.

I've also been thinking a lot. About this rollercoaster ride I'm experiencing at the moment. And about the past. The very distant past. The pain from then is fresh anew, but I believe it's something I have to go through right now. I'm thinking of circles, of spirals, of things that comes around when the time is right...

Aye, sometimes the past jumps forth and bites your nose...

Did I ever mention my brother's family reunion plans? Last count - last September, I think - was 208. Only decendant of our paternal grandparents. I think I have met less than twenty of these people face to face. He has dug up several of our 'lost' siblings too. All in all there are four that I haven't met on my father's side. One on my mother's - but she doesn't count in this reunion thing, of course. I'm still not sure if I want to go. One part of me is very curious, another part is panicking at the mere thought...

I digress, this entry was supposed to be about dreams... Soothsaya suggested the other day that I should put up a dream page on my homepage, and now it's done. The first entry there is a dream from way back that I still ponder upon sometimes.

Then there is this longing for something else, something more. For more laughs and louder heart beats. And I want to get closer, but I find it so hard. Those walls constructed with such care so long ago are difficult to break. The things I really want to say bounces off like an echo - and what happens to seep through is not only very weak, it's distorted too. I pray for patience and calm today.

Another digression, that...

Only shadows are left from last night's adventures in Nannalandia. A few nights ago I woke up at some point during the night in the middle of a kiss - that was the whole dream. That sweet, tender kiss on the corner of my mouth. So loving. It brought tears to my eyes. I tried to enter the dream again to say thank you, but I lost my way. So I'll say it here instead. Thank you.

(8 replies, Latest reply: Mar 18, 2002)

Sláinte!
Mar 17, 2002

(2 replies, Latest reply: Mar 18, 2002)