In Dostoyevsky's "Notes From Underground," the main character is a nameless narrator, "The Underground Man." I finished reading this book a couple days ago, and I realized that his story is my story, or at least it could be with the right circumstances. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. For now, it's good, because I have a greater self-understanding now. A simple book, 91 pages, full of answers, and more questions. Definately more questions.
That's something I know now, there will always be questions. But knowing that there will be always be questions brings answers with it as well. I know that there are some things I can't believe, like religion. I can question, and I can learn, but never fully believe. I lack faith obviously, but faith is not something I can have. I'm too aware for faith, too aware of the doubts that would always accompany faith.
But I believe in truth, which is almost the same thing. I'm a seeker, and perhaps someday I will know what I seek.
3 Goals I came up with today:
Find Truth in something
Find Love in someone
Find Happiness in myself
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